After All We're A Family

After All We're A Family: Poem by me Lauralee Hensley title: When Someone Y...

2011-12-23T02:21:00.000-07:00

After All We're A Family: Poem by me Lauralee Hensley title: When Someone Y...: When someone you love keeps stabbing your very soul does your spirit ever really climb out of that black hole? When someone you love corre...
This is a link to a poem I wrote that I think some people can relate to.

Poem by me Lauralee Hensley title: When Someone You Love.

2011-12-23T02:14:00.000-07:00

When someone you love keeps stabbing your very soul
does your spirit ever really climb out of that black hole?
When someone you love corrects everything you do or say,
do you find it hard to just get through another day?
When someone you love ignores you but not others on the internet
do the pieces of time to reconnect with them ever reset?
When someone you love hushes you everytime you try to speak
does you voice soon become silently weak?
Someone I love you, please love me.
Someone I love you, why don't you see.
Someone I love you, but I feel empty.
Someone I love you, this is reality.
When someone you love sends darts with their eyes,
do you try to smile through or do you looked surprised?
When someone you love always walk away from you where ever you go
do you wonder if it's because for others they want to put on a show?
When someone you love seems so distant and away
do you wonder why you even bother to stay?
When someone you love won't let you hold them in a long embrace
do the memories of why you first loved them start to erase?
Someone I love you, please love me.
Someone I love you, why don't you see.
Someone I love you, but I feel empty.
Someone I love you, this is reality.
When someone you love only wants to sleep alone
does your heart start to turn to stone?
When someone you love says "It's not you, it's me,"
does it ring true as something to believe?
When someone you love doesn't want to hear how you feel
do you wonder if the love they once professed was ever real?
When someone you love packs their bag and walks out the door,
did you know that this is what a vow of committment had in store?
Someone I love you, please love me.
Someone I love you, why don't you see.
Someone I love you, but I feel empty.
Someone I love you, this is reality.
When someone you love is no longer in love with you
do you convince yourself they'll come back and your love will renew?
When someone you love seems so very happy on their own
do you tell yourself that it was your own fault that the relationship is blown?
When someone you love hires an attorney
do you sob into your hands and fall onto your knees?
When someone you love gets everything they want and more
does your heart ache to hear them once again snore?
Someone I love you, please love me.
Someone I love you, why don't you see.
Someone I love you, but I feel empty.
Someone I love you, this is reality.
When someone isn't your someone again find a friend,
do a little crying on their shoulder and get around that hurtful bend.
When someone is out of your life for good
do something nice for yourself like you really should.
When someone isn't going to be nice to you anymore,
don't look back, just slam that haunting door.
When someone strong finally comes forth from inside of you,
remember to your own self always be kind and true.
Someone I loved you, now I love me.
Someone I loved you, and now I can see.
Someone I loved you, I'm no longer empty.
Someone I loved you, this is a new reality.

You can share this poem link with friends for them to read, but it is mine and written by me. You can not use my poem to make money from by selling it in any form without first consulting me and purchasing it at a price I will decide upon. Thank you, Lauralee Hensley of the blog After All We're A Family.

This is just wrong, so very, very wrong.

2011-12-15T15:56:00.000-07:00

https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1603073169#!/permalink.php?story_fbid=207896132625245&id=1603073169

Why would any Democratically minded individual want to be associated with doing this?

Poem Title: B-Clause It Rings True

2011-12-10T22:01:00.000-07:00

(First before I begin typing the poem let me explain I wrote this as though Jesus might be speaking to Santa Clause via a dream sequence sort of like the ghosts in the play Scrooge)

In the Nick of time I give this dream to Jolly Old you,
B-Clause it rings so very true.
Many don't know me, they have no clue.
Yet they believe in the magic of your suit's red hue.

Selling with your bearded smile becomes the retailers object;
ad campaigns billed as the December Chimney Project.
Separation of church and state again the hot subject;
the Creator's Son dropped like a spent coal in dust bins of reject.

Pine trees flashing lights of red, green, golden yellow, even blue.
Roofs and lawns adorned with Rudolph, snowmen, Grinch and you.
Whereas, my first earthly birthday remembered on so few.
Some Christians might kneel this by year by another empty church pew.

You only give them man-made gifts one time each year.
Yet, they celebrate you for that with robust Ho-Ho-Ho Cheer!
They'll happily watch for your sleigh and flying reindeer,
with faces pressed against window panes they'll wait and peer.

When I offer them the gift of eternal life, so many now jeer.
Of Hell's chains and nails they have no sense of righteous fear,
though their chosen fate may be hammering near.
They don't see that Salvation awaits them. I am right here.

I do believe this dream is wasted on you.
Your fabled image is too busy in the country of the red, white and blue.
B-Clause It Rings True,
You can't design a toy to make their love of me ever renew.

B-Clause It Rings True,
there are no toy designs that will make it renew.
It has to be their choice or they pay the due.
Do you have anything in your bag to give them a clue?

The B-Clause is the Bible Clause found in John 3:16.
Have you ever read it, do you know what it means?
Are you too busy with the happening Christmas scenes,
or now concerned about fitting into your favorite jeans?

B-Clause It Rings True,
this may be wasted on you.
B-Clause It Rings True,
I hope this sticks to your heart like glue.

Poem: Written by Lauralee Hensley of the blog After All We're A Family on December 10th, 2011..... You have permission to copy and post this poem as long as you do not alter it, or my name as the author of it. Thank you and God Bless You All.

Politicians Not Honoring Those That Served Once Again!!!!!!!!!-!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-08-25T13:47:00.000-06:00

I've been told NYC Policemen and Firefighters are not invited to the 10th anniversary of 9/11 at Ground Zero. The mayor claims there's not room for them. They weren't invited to that day in 2001 either. THEY JUST SHOWED UP AND DID THEIR JOB! Please re-post if you think they belong there more than the Politicians!!!!!!!!!-!!!!!!!!!!!

August 2011 job openings with Dean Foods (various food companies)

2011-08-17T13:22:00.002-06:00

https://deanfoods.hua.hrsmart.com/ats/job_search.php
If you know someone looking for a job have them look at pages 12-15 above. Dean Foods (various food companies we know are under this umbrella). They have lots of job openings for August 2011. Various states and various jobs. I hope this helps someone in this tough economy. God Bless.

Ask President Obama to Veto using the link listed below.

2011-07-14T15:25:00.000-06:00

http://www.whitehouse.gov/contact/ Ask President Obama to Veto allowing non-USA citizens to be allowed to draw on America's Social Security. This money should be protected for legal United States Citizens who have paid into Social Security all their working lives via taxes to be there for them when they reach retirement age.
Isn't Social Security already burdened? The government is already talking cut backs in Social Security benefits for those who are qualified. Then why do we add to it's rolls by adding on non-USA citizens that are in this country illegally.
If those persons want that benefit, they should come here through legal means and become citizens and pay into the system like USA citizens do.
Better yet, why don't they stay in their own countries and try to effect a chance there for the good of all that country's citizens? Let them help their own country implement an effective retirement system for their citizens, not bankrupt ours any sooner than it may already be.
America needs to go back to being a common sense nation, not a best friend of the world's population nation.
Best friends should be on a one to one relationship level.
I expect the United States of America Government to be listening to the citizens who employ them, not be hugging and kissing the whole world. Government officials if you want to hug and kiss your best friend go ahead, but do it on your own time. Government officials if you want to give your best friend a gift then go ahead, but use your own dollar to buy it, not mine.
Government Officials if you want your bank account drained by someone who never legally or with your permission deposited a penny into it, then I say you have no common sense.
You don't need to be a mathematician, a statistician, or an accountant to see that more people on a burdened Social Security roll is not a good thing.
Signed a person with common sense,
Lauralee Hensley

My Next Mom

2011-06-27T10:20:00.000-06:00

A poem/song lyrics written 6/25/2011 2-5:30AM by Lauralee F. Hensley

Idea came to me after watching so much of the Tot Mom Terrible Trial Stuff, then listening to the beautiful music of Josh Groban. Then my mind was like that little girl could have had a beautiful life, if she'd just been given to someone who really cared. Adoption would have been an option.

Though this isn't exactly just about the little girl in Florida, it is about so many children that are emotionally discarded by their parents because of parents self-need over shadowing the needs of the children they are meant to love and protect.

Title: My Next Mom

Mom,

My Next Mom is so proud of me,

of who I've grown up to be.

Mom, I wish you knew

My Next Mom.

She is so good, it's almost hard to believe.

I'll always remember when

My Next Mom-

turned deep pain into deep love;

love I believe was a life changing gift from above,

that I will always try to pass gratefully on.

_______

My Next Mom

helped silence my hearts' angry fury,

all the times I couldn't understand fully,

why you chose your next fix and abandoned me.

I'm sure the drugs caused my secret deformities.

My Next Mom

looked past them, holding me close and tenderly.

To her I was never a burden or mistake,

easily tossed from a car after a tap on the brake.

________

Mom,

My Next Mom is so proud of me,

of who I've grown up to be.

Mom, I wish you knew

My Next Mom.

She is so good, it's almost hard to believe.

I'll always remember when

My Next Mom-

turned deep pain into deep love;

love I believe was a life changing gift from above,

that I will always try to pass gratefully on.

_________

Mom,

My Next Mom gave me a real home and security,

though she wasn't rich, young, or even pretty.

She had a true inner strength and beauty.

Over time she instilled trust and good in me.

Mom, why am I drawn to your marker in this cemetery?

I've wished you would have sought out help and became drug free.

Babies even get sold for a next drug stake.

Some Moms do their time with casket mate Crystal Snowflake.

__________

Mom,

My Next Mom is so proud of me,

of who I've grown up to be.

Mom you will never know

My Next Mom,

Trading life for skeleton keys, futile were your twenties.

Mom, I'll always remember when you decided-

that deep pain needed more drugs.

I know now was your life changing deception con,

and Mom your legacy will not be passed on,

because of the love of

My Next Mom.

UNSUBSCRIBING TO BLOGS AND EVEN OTHER EMAILS THIS WEEK

2011-06-20T14:47:00.002-06:00

Due to my information being stolen by Lulz Sec (who I personally feel is nothing but an extortion group, whether the extortion is for personal fame gain, or possibly future monetary gain, by fear and intimidation in my opinion) I am taking safety precautions of unsubscribing to most blogs I follow as well as company advertisements I allow to be sent to me.
I don't know if their posting of my information over the internet at various sites had anything to do with possibly someone getting into my system and causing my previous computer to totally crash with no recovery ability, or if all the new scam mails that are overloading my junk mail (especially from Nigeria, the UK, China etc., that say you have a relative that died or you won this or that and send them all your info) is related to their exploits or not. I'm not sure if their posting of such, lead someone to get into my system and steal info to companies that require us to do business with them via the internet or not, but we were affected financially and had to take steps to change account numbers and more with such companies.
This really stinks. I'm not a well person already and this has affected me both emotionally and physically.
Anyways, for your sites safety and mine, I'm trying to unsubscribe, so in case they can get to your locations via mine that it will not happen.
I suspect some people were already phishing and attempting to piggyback on my email address since Lulz Sec posted my information , as someone from London had logged onto my account there per Facebook info. I know no one in London, and I've never been there, so I already know that Lulz Sec probably caused this to happen by posting the info. Someone since the Lulz Sec posting of my information also tried to purchase some monetary exchanges using our info, but that was stopped by our financial institution.
We already informed LifeLock and they too are on the outlook.
Cyber Crime is not justified Lulz Sec, even by your so-called motives of good. They are not good when they hurt people like me. I never did anything to you Lulz Sec, but I truly suspect that what you did posting the information has in fact hurt me and my family. I believe you are at least someone at fault in some way by allowing my information that I never gave you permission to post was put out on the internet where people could get into my system, that information included my password. That was my personal property only to share with those I wanted. It was not your property. You stole something of mine whether you see it that way or not.
I hope those persons behind Lulz Sec are caught, sued, imprisoned. Personally I don't believe extortion is protected in any country on this planet. So I don't know if your group is located in the USA, or another country, or various countries around the world. I just hope where your members are located that the authorities are hot on your heels and catch you very, very, soon.

Lulz Sec got me! Did you know about Facebook Wormholes?

2011-06-19T00:22:00.000-06:00

Lulz Sec stole my email address and my password. They've posted it on the internet. Please everyone change your passwords to protect yourself.
Change your passwords frequently everywhere you go.
This has made me physically sick, as well as emotionally upset. I feel violated, put at risk because of them, and more.
I didn't ask for this, just like I didn't asked to be raped when I was a kid.
Only this time I'm not going to be silent!!!!!!!
These people think they are doing a service, well I am here to tell them it was not a service and was crap to me.
I didn't ask them for this. I did nothing to them and yet here they are hurting me.
They should be caught, then sued by the people and companies they've done this too, then finally put in jail for life.
They've taken away my right of pursuit of happiness. I am definitely not happy, and am very afraid of the internet right now.
I wonder if this has any link to Facebook telling me people from London were getting into my Facebook account. I also wonder if this has a correspondence with people getting our bank account number and us having to change all that just recently. They were trying to buy some kind of foreign currency.
If Lulz Sec wasn't responsible for those items happening, maybe they still put me at risk for such by posting this information on the internet.
I don't know if I want to have anything to do with the computer anymore. They are more than criminals in my book, they are life suckers. They suck the enjoyment out of life. I have very little in life and the little I have they are taking away from me.
I am so very depressed now. I don't know who I can trust anymore or if I even want to try.
I am so thinking about cancelling my Twitter, Facebook and Blog pages and just saying goodbye to the computer.
Problem is some of my bills I have to pay must be paid via automation.
Maybe the Government and other businesses will rethink it being mandatory that your bills and Doctor visits must be paid or scheduled online. I sure hope so, so that safety and security can be mine once more.
Lulz Sec thank you for raping my soul, you lower than scum of the earth!!!!!!!!!

After All We're A Family: HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!QUIT YIELDING THE FLOOR!!!!!!!W...

2011-04-09T01:15:00.000-06:00

After All We're A Family: HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!QUIT YIELDING THE FLOOR!!!!!!!W...: "Okay, Hubby could not have a paycheck, but will still be expected to work for the FEDERAL GOVERNMENT. Okay, if things aren't worked out by M..."

HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!QUIT YIELDING THE FLOOR!!!!!!!WORK IT OUT ALREADY!!!!!!!!

2011-04-09T01:08:00.002-06:00

Okay, Hubby could not have a paycheck, but will still be expected to work for the FEDERAL GOVERNMENT.
Okay, if things aren't worked out by MAY 1st, it will start affecting military retirees pay too.
So, won't be able to borrow money to keep above water from Hubby's Dad, who is retired military.
My folks are both dead, so no borrowing from them. No children here in the work arena to borrow from.
Wow, owe on our home, owe on our one vehicle, so really no collateral to get a bank loan with if things hit a stale mate and don't get resolved by our elected officials.
So wondering if our home and vehicle will be taken, or if that can't happen.
If you think we can take Hubby's already earned vacation pay, sick leave pay and such, that is a big fat "NO." Not during this period you can't.
Granted when things get worked out, he's suppose to get his back pay, but what about in the mean time.
Would we be allowed to collect food stamps, I wonder. I truly do, or if that will be frozen for these persons that may be affected by this too.
Oh well, have to turn it all over to GOD. I don't see this really being resolved this weekend at least. I'm wondering if Hubby will be called into work in the morning for mandatory work to cover for those persons that may not be considered essential personnel because they don't yet have all the clearances they need to work in certain areas of the government.
I never in my lifetime thought this would be effecting or happening to my family, but it is. Yes, we need to have less government spending. They (our elected officials) need to be realistic about where the cuts need to be placed, and they need to get themselves in gear and get it done instead of yielding the floor and spouting off just to hear themselves talk and impress one another.

How much is it costing you for the bureaucrats and others to wipe their tail feathers?

2011-03-29T15:51:00.003-06:00

I Just Read This on Twitter whitecloudmom Did you know that the Pentagon uses about 667 rolls of TP each day?! Whoa! How fast does your family go through TP? #Rollvolution

Well, after reading that I need to start a petition "Save Tax Dollars, each Pentagon Worker/Visitor is required to bring their own Toliet Paper from home for their own usage."
Then after we tackle the Pentagon onward and forward to all other government agencies.
This will lead to new jobs because toliet paper companies are going to have to develop, market, distribute
new portable flat rolls, that people can hide as they carry them around with them. Corn Cob Shucks, the generic person in me says that won't work, the average person will just use facial tissue on their vertical smile.
Yet can you imagine the amount of tax payer dollars saved if we didn't foot the bill for that particular type of paper product. I mean we still need to pay for paper towels or hand blow dryers to decrease the spread of germs, but if we just eliminated TP on the tax bill.

Let's make Tax TP Free
for all Americans like you and me.
Sound off,
one, two, three, four,
we aren't going to pull our pants down anymore.

Just kidding, and wanting to add a little humor to the flushable situation our economy seems to be in.

Let's do some math....... Let's say the Pentagon cost is $166 dollars per day just for TP (and I think that's probably a very low estimate on the cost) x 365 days per year = $60,590 a year! Yikes. I wish the Pentagon would pay me that kind of bucks for thinking of the idea and implementing it in all government facilities, thereby saving at least over a million dollars a year, actually I'm sure the savings would be so much higher.

The Company Store Facebook Page Voting For Best Children's Artistic Design Has Begun

2011-03-29T14:19:00.001-06:00

http://apps.facebook.com/contestshq/contests/93489/voteable_entries?ogn=facebook

I voted for TJ's design. I don't know TJ, but I looked through all three pages of contest entries and felt TJ's was bright and cheerful. The design is going to be put on comforters by The Company Store and they will be donating them to a worthy cause.
The child who made the winning design will win a comforter with their design as well as a gift certificate to The Company Store.
You can only vote once. Multiple votes will be disqualified according to the rules. So go and check out the design you like best. There are some really great ones there to look at. I think all the kids did a wonderful job with their designs.
Good Luck to all the entrants.

Twitter Followers You Don't Want Tweeting on Your Twitter Page.

2011-03-13T19:12:00.001-06:00

Today I had to block a Twitter Follower of mine. I didn't really know the person when they began following my page, but thought nothing about it at the time.   Well today I saw about four tweets on my page that they were explaining what parts of their own body they were touching etc...    Gross!!!!!
So thankfully someone else was commenting on Twitter today about spammed comments and where to go to find out how to block them. I'm so glad they tweeted this information, because I used it to block that former follower from my page.
I went to http://support.twitter.com/entries/117063
which is in the Twitter Help Center   the section is called To block a Twitter user.
1. Log in to your Twitter account
2. Go to the profile page of the person you wish to block. I had to click on one of their comments on my twitter page, then on profile to get there.
3. Click on the gear icon it kind of looks like a black circle with spokes on the outer edges of it. This brings up a drop-down Actions menu.
4. Select Block from the options listed on the drop-down Actions menu.
What this does is help in the fact that
Blocked users can't:
                       Add your Twitter account to their lists
                       Have their @replies or mentions show in your mentions tab (although these Tweets may
                                                                                                                  still appear in search).
                        Follow you.
                        See your profile picture on their profile page or in their timeline.
Please note: that if your account is public (i.e., not protected), your Tweets will still be visible on your public profile page.
Twitter doesn't notify a user when you've blocked them, but because they will not longer be able to follow you, they may notice that they've been blocked.
Some may then start hitting your facebook page or private blogs, in which case you'll need to find out how to block them on those if needed.
I'm sure many of you have already had this problem and dealt with it. Pretty much my first yucky encounter.
Good Luck to everyone who has to, or has already been blocking scum bums.

Let Us Pray for Japan and also for other countries to be protected.

2011-03-11T01:04:00.000-07:00

Japan was hit hard by an 8.9 or greater earthquake just a little bit ago. This triggered a massage Tsunami that then hit the Island. Homes swept away, cars swept away. Large fires. People on roof tops awaiting help. Farm land washed out to sea.
The video footage I saw on Fox News was so sad. I saw flashers on vehicles tail ends going, as the fronts of some vehicles were already submerged. Even some boats were thrust onto the land as the wave came in strong and fast and slammed them into buildings.
Thankfully no radioactive leaks have been noted from their nuclear power plants that had been affected by the earthquake and tsunami at the time I type this, which is about 3am EST, 2am CST, 1am MST in the USA.
Let us pray for Japan and what they are going through.
Let us also pray for the protection of Hawaii who are under a tsunami warning, not watch, but warning.
It could hit anytime now. So let us hope the people on the low lying coast line have been able to get to higher ground. Urgent action should be taken to prevent loss of life and property in Hawaii, all islands belonging to Hawaii are included in the warning. A tsunami has been generated.

Thank you Coit!

2011-03-06T20:45:00.000-07:00

Thank you Coit! You've made my home a nicer place to be. The great technician you had come out to my home yesterday to clean all the air ducts in the house was polite, informative, and proficient in his work.
He wasn't offended when I needed to be watching him in certain rooms of our home, per my husbands instructions. He said he understood perfectly and would be the same way in his own home.
He told us about an area we needed to fix where our heating pipe under our home in the crawl space did not totally meet up with the heating register on one side in one room of our home. He said we were losing heat that way and we'd save money if we used some insulating foam to seal that up.
He told us about other ways to keep our air clean by using heating register filters and to cut a Filtrete 3M filter to fit inside of our cold air returns.
He understood when he had to make friends with my two biggest dogs before I let him start working so they'd leave him alone. I had to make the dogs understand that it was okay for him to be there, especially since one of them is a guard dog. Even so, I put them into another locked fenced off area of the yard so they couldn't bother him.
I put the smaller dog into his locked crate and put him in the garage with the light on, because he will nip and bark. So, it was better for all around for him to be in there when the work was being done.
We don't have a large house, under 1300 sq. ft., so it only took 2 hours. He came in the time frame he said he would come. Note this wasn't a four hour time frame like many repair people give you, it was a two hour time frame. We knew the job would take between 2 and 3 hours when he came.
So, I thank you Coit for the technician you sent, for being on time, for being done in the time frame we were told. I also thank you for the discount you gave us for having the job done the very next day after the estimate. I don't know of many businesses that would give a 50 percent discount like that.
The biggest thing I am thankful for now Coit, is how quite my heater sounds now each time it kicks on. No doggy furballs or dog food rattling around. Yes, I said dog food. Somehow some of my dogs have dropped at some point dog food down some of the heating registers.
The air in the house smells cleaner too.
For all of these things and great technician I give a very happy and pleased client Thank You to Coit.
Coit did not pay me to post this, nor did they give me a discount to post this because they didn't even know I had a blog. They never asked if I had a blog and I never told them I had a blog. I only posted this because I was happy with the service we received that my husband wanted done on our home.

The X Prize

2011-02-22T15:38:00.001-07:00

What happens when the X Prize founders are taxed so much simply for having money that they earned from their hard work and foresight, that they can't sponsor the X Prize Foundation any longer?
Don't know what the X Prize Foundation is, or what I'm even talking about, then go to the link below.
xprize.org
Do you know someone who is very inventive and has a dream, then get them to this link. It may help them.
Yet, I personally think they should hurry, because how long can foundations exist to help others when the sponsors of such foundations may be taxed so much in the future that they stop sponsoring endeavors such as these?
Earthly riches only last so long, they are not forever. The mighty often fall, and over burdening of taxes seems to hurry the fall along faster. The problem is when they fall, many others employed by them are affected, as well as future employees or maybe even future X Prize Winners who in turn employee others etc... It would be nice if businesses and charities had no end, but alas many do. Now, if the end is caused by poor management, then this is understandable, but when it is caused because of the trickle down effect of over taxation, well that is a sad day indeed. I think we are seeing this happening now and I believe it's only going to get worse.
You can't give everyone a handout from the government to the people through taxation of the people, even if you start by limiting that taxation to the people with the most money. It won't work. It has a trickle down equation to it. The people with the most money won't always be the people with the most money because it's been taken away by taxes, so they go to the next set of people with the second most amount of money to tax at a high rate, then their money is no longer there either, and it trickles down. It trickles down because they don't donate to charities or support great helpful foundations, they let employees go from businesses they own, or even close businesses they own. They try to get out before they lose even more than they already have. It trickles down to the workers, those in need, or those that could have used foundation monies to invent something that perhaps one day could save lives.
X marks the spot. Isn't that what was on treasure maps in the old days?
Soon I'm afraid that a TA will be added in front of the X, and TAX will mark the spot for all that is not.

What do you do when your friend is addicted?

2011-01-31T18:15:00.000-07:00

What do you do when you find out your friend is addicted?
The friend that was my maid of honor at my wedding many years ago called about an hour ago.
She seemed frantic, as she usually has each time she's called me over the past year. She's still seeking Ambien from any Doctor that will give it to her. She calls me hoping I know a Doctor that will write her a presciption. I don't know any Doctor's. I've told her this in the past.
Seems she has been getting the medicine from a relative, and she hasn't even told her husband she's been getting this medication from them. I'm sure her husband would flip his lid if he knew she was getting medications without a prescription.
She kept telling me she needed the medication because her days were too long. So I asked her if she was taking the medication to sleep at night, or if she was taking it during the day. She takes it both day and night. She wants to sleep her days away because they are too long and she has nothing to do since they put her on disability and will no longer let her teach.
I told her you don't sleep during the day simply because you are bored and your days are too long. I told her you do things or learn things to do to fill them up. I gave her examples of things to do and places to go to learn things. She doesn't want to pay to take classes, and I understand that because money is now tight for them. I suggested she learn new recipes and such.
I told her even if you're bored you don't take pills to sleep during the day. I explained you somehow learn to live with periods of boredom.
I think she was going to start volunteering somewhere, but had a car accident.
I don't think right now while her mind is wandering that she can focus well enough to be driving.
I explained to her I think that she's now addicted to the Ambien and needs to go somewhere (drug rehab, though I didn't say that phrase) to get dried out just like alcoholics do. I tried to explain to her that the longer you take sleeping meds, the less and less they seem to be effective.
Then she said that yesterday she mentioned suicide to the same relative that had been giving her the Ambien. The relative doesn't want to give them to her anymore. So the relative called the police on her because she was talking about suicide. She also said the relative lied and told the police that she was threatening someone too besides.
She said the police came to her house, but that she was able to convince the police the relative was lying.
So, what do you do. She wanted phone numbers from me for the insurance company we both have. She's bound and determined to find a psychiatrist or primary Doctor that will prescribe these pills for her. I don't think any ever will.
I don't know why she can't talk to her own family about her needs and how she's feeling when she is down. I'm not a psychiatrist and pray that she finds a new one that will help her. Apparently her present one isn't.
It must be horrible to have a frantic mind and only want to sleep to escape it. I mean I have health problems too, physical in nature. I have a lot of physical pain with my condition and I don't seek out prescription pain meds, nor do I drown myself in alcohol or any illegal substances to dull my pain.
I really think people sometimes need to find their own way to help themselves with chronic illness, whether mental or physical. I don't think the Doctor's, whether psychiatrists or medical in nature really get it, unless they've been through it themselves.
I talked to my husband and asked him if I thought I should try and call her husband at work and talk to him. He told me "No."
Her husband has physical medical problems and is still trying to work. We already know her daughter is tired of everything with her mom.
So, I just know that I will call the police next time, if needed, if she talks of suicide. I'm not trained in this and I can't be responsible anymore to try and talk her down, or reason with her.
I try, but she doesn't seem to remember what we talk about from one phone call to the next.
It's draining me emotionally. I'm feeling like I can't deal anymore.
So what would you do when your now know your friend is addicted?

I can read this easily, can you?

2011-01-19T17:16:00.002-07:00

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It is their problem, no it is their problem.

2011-01-16T14:15:00.000-07:00

Well for awhile now we couldn't get onto the internet. Our phone company was saying it wasn't them or our IPS service, but was our router. The router company was saying it was our phone company and the DSL line.
So back and forth, and back and forth. Well thankfully the phone company sent a technician out today on a Sunday to check the problem. Sure enough it was the DSL line. Something had to be fixed in a phone box a bit away from us. There wasn't a problem in the phone box that was right behind our house, because apparently our phone line doesn't originate from there. It comes from a phone box on another block some distance from us. Strange if you ask me.
Anyways the technician replaced some wires at the box where our DSL comes from. Now we are back, but not before my husband had to pay almost a hundred dollars to the router company so they'd go through and help him check if it was our router. Okay, so he gets a year worth of service for that hundred dollars, but it wasn't our router and if our phone company would have checked on their end first then we wouldn't have had to put out money for something we didn't need. So very frustrating and sometimes feels like a racket if you ask me.
Ahh well, at least we are back online and have the internet again.

Oh where oh where did Google Friends Go.

2010-12-26T16:59:00.000-07:00

Hopefully Google Friends is doing updating again, as once again I don't see them on my blog or other people's blogs.
Why can't they do site maintenance in the middle of the night, like 1 or 2am EST and not during the day?
Ahh well, since I don't own it, I guess I don't have a say.
I just wonder when and if I don't see it if other people are?

Fudge Buckets It Happened Again This Christmas!

2010-12-26T13:53:00.006-07:00

Christmas 2010, even worse than last year because of one single relative.

Yes, that one single relative who tried over three times this year to pick a fight with my husband.

Thankfully he just ignored her each and every time she tried to get him to say something back to start a big old rip roar.

She even went as far to call our dogs "Sh_ts" to try and get a response out of my husband and couldn't. Thing is she's never met our dogs and they weren't with us at the in laws, but her little dog sure was. We were just talking about dogs and how our dogs interact with each other sometimes and

she went on the attack. Then she's telling us our newest dog will run away because of the breed it is, etc... We didn't say a thing. We let her have her mini verbal tantrum.

Then I started helping mom-in-law (Let me clarify mom-in-law is not my husband or sister-in-laws biological mother. She married my father-in-law long after his first wife had passed away.) setting the table etc., and brother-in-law who is very nice, carved the turkey.

I feel very sorry for my brother-in-law who is married to my husband's sister. He has to put up with

her nonsense all the time. I don't know how he does it. He has two different serious health problems now, still works, then comes home to do everything and on top of it puts up with her behaviors.

Bipolar Disease is what she has, but I don't think it's that disease that is causing all of her behaviors all of the time. I think she enjoys being snotty and mean and hurting every one's feelings but her Dad's.

I am so thankful my father-in-law can barely hear, because he really gets upset when she cusses and

says mean things. He seems to just focus in on the TV and tunes out everything else that's going on.

She seemed to calm down during the meal at the table, probably because her beloved Daddy was sitting close enough to hear her and see her behave.

After dinner, the Father-in-law quickly returned to his favorite chair in the living room and back to watching sports on TV as usual. My husband joined him.

The rest of us stayed around the table talking about various things.

Soon she tried to pick a fight with me, slamming my political party, though I hadn't brought anything up about politics. I know better than to do that.

I was just talking about how I thought our state might end up with a drought this year and mom-in-law said she hoped we didn't turn into a dust bowl like in the depression.

Sis-in-law said she thought we would have a depression caused by such and such political party and by a certain religious group. I thought to myself your so full of nonsense. She always tries to blame

things going on in the world on certain classes of people. Yet, we let her go on for awhile and no one

said a thing. We didn't want her to start cussing loud and upset her Dad.

Now her husband, my mom-in-law and I helped start clearing the table. She stood by and watched us, then took a seat on a bar stool near a side of the kitchen and watched us.

We're putting things away. My brother-in-law asked if my mother-in-law wanted to save I think it was a piece of aluminum foil. My mom-in-law couldn't even say anything when sis-in-law says quite loudly I thought, "No, No, you know she doesn't save anything! You know she thinks recycling is a waste of time and she can't be bothered helping the earth! No, you know how she is!"

My mom-in-law got out a "What?" Then her husband got out "________(sis-in-law's first name) Pleas." Sis-in-law didn't let him finish, she interrupted glared at him like she'd kill him if he finished or said one more word. He stopped in his tracks. Mom-in-law started to say, "Now what are you trying to do, sass" she didn't get to finish either.

Sis-in-law interrupted her, pointed her finger at mom-in-law, angrily looked at her and said "Shut up, I never liked you anyways."

Mom-in-law had enough, emotionally hurt and I could tell near tears she said, "That's enough. I won't be talked to like this is my own home. I never said I wouldn't recycle."

Sis-in-law snobbishly said back while flinging her arms up in the air, "Yeah, yeah, yeah, whatever sh_t you say. We know. We know and I'll say the truth because that's what it is the truth."

I tried to be a break point, so I physically stood between where my sis-in-law and mother-in-law so they couldn't see each others faces.

Facing my mom-in-law I asked her where she kept the plastic wrap. I thought I'd interrupt the flow of talk between the two of them to calm it down a bit.

Then sis-in-law looks at her husband, I think wanting him to back her up verbally. Thankfully he said, "Hey we need to think about getting on the road because we have people coming over later to our house for dessert and a get together."

Apparently my father-in-law heard none of her outburst, but my husband who was also in the living room and further away than my father-in-law sure did. Thankfully he stayed out of it. He did say though he thought he'd have to come in if he saw his sister hit anyone, but she didn't do that.

So brother-in-law (poor thing) got her to get the presents they were given and the dog and go and take them out to their vehicle. He then apologized to my mom-in-law and told her that she (sis-in-law) was getting worse and acting like this with everyone now. Mom-in-law told him she didn't know how he was able to put up with it and said that people should stop letting her get away with it.

After they'd left, I stayed for a bit and helped mom-in-law with the cleaning up a bit more, but then even though things weren't done she just wanted us to go too. I think she just needed to have a private cry. What my sis-in-law said really hurt her deeply.

Let me tell you my mom-in-law is a very nice person. She invited them to her home. She was a polite hostess. Everything started, was started by the sis-in-law, as usual.

So later on mom-in-law called me on the phone to thank me for helping her get things on the table and cleaning up afterwards. We decided on the phone we won't be having Christmas or any other holidays with sis-in-law invited anymore. She talked to father-in-law and let him know what happened since he can't hear well. Note the in laws are past their mid eighties. Father-in-law told Mom-in-law that he'd told her they shouldn't have had any one over this year since mom-in-law had been hospitalized twice in the last three months. Which we were never informed of and wish we had been so we could have visited her in the hospital. She didn't tell me what she'd been hospitalized for and I didn't pry. I know of a couple of medical conditions she does struggle with and I figured it was one of the two. She said she did this for father-in-law so he could see his children. He said "No more."

Thankfully he's on the same page with her.

I told mom-in-law that next year, if they don't go to Thanksgiving or Christmas with her children, then our little family will either have Christmas at our home and not invite sis-in-law or we will take them out without inviting sis-in-law.

I told her we'd probably take them out to eat so they wouldn't have to deal with our dogs who get a bit crazy when visitors are around.

Granted probably have to go out to a Chinese Restaurant on Christmas, but they serve a nice Duck.

So next year if the nice, but small Jewish Community in our area sees a little group of Gentiles at the

nice Chinese Restaurant on Christmas day, it might just be us.

Here's to a nicer and none Bipolar outbursting holiday celebrations in 2011.

After All We're A Family: An Early Merry Christmas and Happy New Year's To A...

2010-12-19T19:30:00.000-07:00

After All We're A Family: An Early Merry Christmas and Happy New Year's To A...: "Poem: My 2010 Christmas Prayer. I pray everyone has a Merry Christmas this year. Throughout the world I pray there is no war..."

An Early Merry Christmas and Happy New Year's To All

2010-12-19T18:50:00.000-07:00

Poem: My 2010 Christmas Prayer.
I pray everyone has a Merry Christmas this year.
Throughout the world I pray there is no war or fear.
I pray they'll worship the one who gave his life upon a cross to set us free
from sin that if left unchecked would consume you and me.
Presents to each other under the tree
I pray will remind us that Jesus is the gift from God through all eternity.
May a New Year let us commit to helpfully do more,
to bring love and hope into the world and show them how to open their heart's door.
Amen
by: Lauralee Hensley

Facebook where are you?

2010-12-14T21:48:00.001-07:00

Is it just me, or is everyone having problem seeing their Facebook page tonight? I can't even like any Facebook pages tonight or leave comments on them. I'm wondering why?
I never tell anyone to like any Facebook pages from my blog. I do tweet info from other blogs I visit when they ask in the post to do so, I often share on my Facebook page too when other blogs in their posts ask. It's usually so their blogs will be visited for a review about a sponsors product and a giveaway that is related.
I hope that this is allowed and I'm not being asked to do things by these blogs that their visitors/readers are
not suppose to do according to Facebook or Twitter.
However, I'm not having a problem with Twitter tonight, just Facebook.
Maybe they are just doing site maintenance. Anyways that is what I am hoping.
The little guy just barely starts understanding these things and then people go and change them up. Nerve racking. When something works really well, why change it just for the sake of change. Confusing.
Well, hope I'm not the only one experiencing this problem and that it's fixed soon.

Do you sometimes feel homeless even in your home?

2010-12-08T16:43:00.002-07:00

The truth about it is, whether we is rich or poor or somethin in between, this earth ain't no final restin place. So in a way, we is all homeless--just workin our way toward home.

--Denver Moore (homeless man) in Same Kind of Different As Me

This man (Denver Moore), though homeless must have realized that even rich people can feel homeless sometimes.
I think this happens to some women who once worked outside the home, but then choose to stop and become homemakers. When our families start feeling the loss of our incomes, don't some of us start thinking of the physical structure of our homes as belonging to our husband's since they are bringing the paycheck home?
Well, news for us all. These homes or apartments etc., that we are living in, really belong to God and he's just letting us use them for a time. Sure we are paying to stay in them, but everything first belonged to the Creator.
Then why may we ask, don't some of us have as nice of homes as others? Well, I think that is a silly question to ask. We should instead be focusing on the fact that we are not homeless.
Also Christians should be focusing on the fact that once we are saved our true home will one day be with the Father.
I never hope I have to be homeless here on earth to remember to appreciate what God allows me to use of his while I'm just a passing through.

Don't know what's up with Google again.

2010-12-07T17:21:00.000-07:00

I'm not seeing my Google followers again, nor am I seeing the Google Friends Connect on most blogs that I'm visiting today either. Maybe they are doing some sort of maintenance.
I need to get back to posting here on my little blog. I haven't made any posts in quite some time because it
just seems to be taking all my energy to get through looking at all the other great blogs out there. I do have
things to write and say, but right now with my high pain levels it's just easier to visit your blogs.
God Bless you all.

After All We're A Family: Invite Friends and with their first purchase you'l...

2010-11-23T09:36:00.000-07:00

After All We're A Family: Invite Friends and with their first purchase you'l...: "Billon Dollar Babes offers discounts of up to 85% off designer clothes and accessories. You can join their site for free to be in the know ..."

Invite Friends and with their first purchase you'll earn a $20 credit to BDB

2010-11-23T09:33:00.000-07:00

Billon Dollar Babes offers discounts of up to 85% off designer clothes and accessories. You can join their site for free to be in the know about these offers.
Then once you join you have the option of inviting friends and family to join. Once they join and make their first purchase at BDB, you'll be credited $20 to your account there, which may be applied to your next purchase.
So if you're a fashionista or just someone who really enjoys a great bargain for quality goods, then you owe it to yourself to join, and to spread the beauty of saving money with your friends.
http://www.bdbshop.com/account.php?f=invitecreate&token=1t3UoJiWm6KtoJY%3D&pa=bdbinvite

Will Future War Be Over Needed Space For Their Growing Populations?

2010-11-12T15:56:00.004-07:00

Sometimes I'm a curious sort of person. I was wondering about how many people are living in the United States of America in relationship to our country's actual land mass in square miles. Would you believe we are not crowded in as tightly as many other countries citizens are? In the United States of America we have land areas combined of about 3,537,438.44 square miles and water areas combined of about 256,644.62 square miles, for a total area of 3,794,083.06 approximate square miles. Some of our citizens prefer to live in houseboats that are on some of the waters in our country. Most prefer to live on the land. Some prefer more populated cities and some less populated colder climates. Our country is blessed with varied climates, because we have Alaska, we have Hawaii, we have coastal states, as well as interior states. So there is probably somewhere a citizen can find to live that would agree with them, if finances allowed.

Yet if you look at the web page http://www.infoplease.com/ipa/A0004379.html you'll see other population sizes of various countries in relationship to their land mass availability. Some of these countries have a high population to available land area and related resources.

So this made me wonder if someday in the future would war be waged against the United States of America simply because we have the space available for growing populations of other countries? Wars have been waged before because other countries wanted the spoils (available goods) of other countries, and our country has the land to produce or locate naturally occurring spoils (e.g. food, oil, natural gas, gold and other metals, etc.). These may not be actual real needs of other countries since there is world trade, but it may be sense of supply need control by certain countries. We have factories already built to manufacture goods, and mass market food supplies. There are educated people here who could be taken into custody to work for a new regime against their will.

Why have these thoughts been going through my mind today? I think deep down it's because I don't believe our country has the influence it once had over other countries of the world. I don't think we are truly seen as a military strength in the same way as we were after World War I and World War II.

Back then we didn't see war against us as having to pacify the aggressors. We stood with other strong countries against oppressors of persons. Yet, are there truly strong countries to stand with anymore? Do other countries back away and say, "Here America, you do this and try and leave us out of it as much as possible, both financially and morally." It seems to me to be that way.

I know the Bible tells us that God will bless those that bless Israel and will curse those that curse Israel (it says thee in the verse in place of Israel, but if you read the chapter before, the chapter the verse is in and the chapter after, you know it refers to Israel. Plus it says I (meaning God) will bless those that bless you and curse those that will curse you. I used to feel our government was looking out for Israel's best interest, but I don't really see that happening right now. Why should Israel have to give up any of her land mass to the Muslims wanting it? There are other Muslim nations with great land mass (Saudi Arabia) that could absorb their brother Muslims that want pieces of Israel. If Israel gave up some of their really little land mass to the Muslims would it stop there? I personally don't think so.

I don't know if we really belong in the United Nations anymore either, or if they should even be located here anymore. Perhaps they now belong in the EU. Let security forces of another nation be more involved in making sure everything is safe when the members of the United Nations have their meetings and votes. I don't think the United Nations should have a voice in how the United States of America plans or executes ways and means of keeping the citizens of this nation safe from war mongers (dealers in tricked-out wares of war) and terrorists of any fashion.

I think we should revamp our immigration policies too. I think it should be harder to even get work visa's to come into the United States of America. We already have enough of our current citizens without work without taking on other countries citizens. Other countries need to make their own countries work so their citizens don't want to leave. I mean the countries of the world are not still in

the Dark Ages and need to step up to the responsibilities they have for all of their citizens in that country. Does that mean some countries need to have civil wars to accomplish such? Well, perhaps, ours did. Do people die in civil wars? Yes, they do. Even though I don't want people of any nationality to die, maybe through those deaths (their own citizens deaths that would have a greater personal, moral and ethical impact on the people living in that country) would they ever get to the point of ever having a truly working fair government for their citizens. I mean our soldiers dying for them is not going to hit home as deeply, profoundly, or leave a very deep lasting sense of sacrifice as their own family members ever would.

Though I am very proud of our men and women in the US armed forces that have served, are serving, or have even gave their own lives for these persons in other countries, I wonder if such will

ever have a lasting effect on a change in their governmental structures and the treatments of their own citizens. I think not. Don't the pull-outs of our troops always just seem to result in a new wave

of political unrest in those countries in less than three to seven years? I personally think so. Another Dictator Monarchy type seems to step back up and grab hold, first by terrorizing those not in agreement with his plans through religious methods if possible (e.g. you'll lose your soul, you'll be damned if you don't do his bidding), military force, imprisonment, torture or death and then by spreading his hate in regards to other nations of the world. I feel history truly repeats itself in this regards, at least certainly in some parts of the world. Isn't there a sense of unrest once again in the Sudan region?

Well, I usually try to just hand over all my concerns to God in a prayer, but I thought I'd let my readers know my brain does think on things more than just little mini poems with rhymes. My brain gets pretty complicated in it's thoughts at times. It sends me on little quests to find out more information from time to time. Like today, the population of America in relationship to our land mass and how that might influence how other nations of the world may someday see us.

Neat-O for Eat-O's

2010-11-11T19:42:00.000-07:00

PrinceLionheart has a great product for organizing your baby's eats. Well, to be honest only their jarred baby eat's. It also has a place to hold the Baby's utensils too. It's the 3-in-1 universal organizer.
It makes stacking and viewing the various jarred Baby Foods easier to do. Plus if you were anything like
me, you'd have them stacked in alphabetical order.
You really must check out the review and giveaway going on for this great organizer over at the blog
themombuzz.com

Mothers Should Be Up In Arms Against Amazon For Selling This!

2010-11-11T19:40:00.000-07:00

For more information about this Pedophile book being sold on Amazon go to Frugal Family Fun Spot at
http://frugalfamilyfunspot.blogspot.com/2010/11/shame-on-you-amazon.html?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+blogspot%2FsDde+%28Frugal+Family+Fun%29

Any mother trying to protect their children from Pedophiles should know that this book is being sold on Amazon. If this was a book telling Pedophiles where to get help to keep from acting on the sexual/control needs than maybe this could be tolerated, but when a book tells Pedophiles what to do not to get caught, well then this is another story.

In America this is absolutely so WRONG. Freedom of speech, or is it freedom of how to do a crime and not get caught? You decide. I won't be buying from Amazon.

Do you quilt? I have and I'd love to win an Accuquilt Go and Dies, would you?

2010-11-07T19:40:00.000-07:00

I have made several quilts in my lifetime. Some had liquid embroidered pictures on them (these were for my niece and nephew's twin size beds and had bible story pictures on them), some with hand sewn embroidery (for a friends baby, it had little animals on them). Some of these quilts I used a sewing machine to speed up assembly time, some I did every stitch by hand.

Some had added embellishments like flat lace, ruffled lace, buttons

and yes even bows.

Yet, one thing I found that took a bit of enjoyment out of the quilting was carefully tracing and cutting out each quilting piece by hand.

No I didn't use a rotary cutter. I did it all by hand.

Then the first time I did use a rotary cutter at a church quilting function the rotary blade broke and sliced my finger pretty badly.

Ouch was an understatement. So I went back to my old way with the scissors.

Yet, I've read and learned about the Accuquilt Go!

I think this is the most wonderful invention for quilters.

Lavender Ridge is having a giveaway of an Accuquilt Go! and 3 Dies on their blog.

If you'd like to enter to win like I would you can find the details over at

http://lavenderridge.blogspot.com/2010/11/go-giveaway.html

Good luck and God Bless.

We've all heard about CSN's 200+ stores. How about winning $75 to spend in it?

2010-11-05T22:31:00.000-06:00

I love Pfaltzgraff tableware serving pieces. Do you? If you do Pfaltzgraff pieces can be found at CSN.
My favorite pieces right now are the Winterberry pieces, they'd be perfect for a beautiful Christmas table. These are pieces that can be handed down generation to generation too. They will remain fashionable through all the trends that come and go.
Just do a search at CSN for Winterberry and it will take you to a page full of Winterberry patterned table serving items.
What Andie Wears has a great review at her blog and also a $75 gift certificate to CSN stores to be given away. Wouldn't you like to enter for a chance to win? I did and hope you will too. Even if you don't want to get anything for yourself, think Christmas presents. Good Luck and God Bless.
http://whatandiewears.blogspot.com/2010/11/giveaway-csn-stores-gift-card.html#comment-form

Trying to Find Some Nice Sugar Free Treats for gift giving?

2010-10-30T22:03:00.001-06:00

I love The Swiss Colony. I've usually purchased their cheese or beef logs as Christmas gifts for some family members. Then I also added a great selection of jellies or jams to the gift.

Yet, this year I have to be a bit more careful in my selections for some family members. Some have developed diabetes. One has to take insulin and one does not, yet either way I don't want to make them have to say "No" to all holiday goodies.

It's refreshing that The Swiss Colony has more sugar free selections this year. Two of the items in the sugar free category that I know my in-laws would really like are the Sugar Free Peanut Brittle and also The Sugar Free Mints. If you don't see the Sugar Free Items in the drop down category then just type in Sugar Free in the search bar.

Next Head over to Eighty MPH Mom, where you can win a $30 item from The Swiss Colony! You'd be surprised how many really affordable gifts they have there this year. A lot of places have undergone price increases, but you won't see that this year at The Swiss Colony.

Good Luck.

One of those phone calls you don't want to get.

2010-10-26T17:29:00.000-06:00

I received a phone call from a friend today. She was disabled by a brain bleed related to medication she was taking and an infection she had. She's been having a real hard time adjusting to life since she can no longer work. Physically she is able to do some things but needs constant redirection to complete tasks and not be constantly worrying.

I've received calls from her in the past, but today she told me that she almost decided to just commit suicide yesterday.

My heart dropped. What do you tell someone who thinks the medical profession has let them down, when you yourself are thinking the same exact thing. Except, in my case I'm not thinking of killing myself. I just don't want to deal with them (doctor's) anymore.

She wanted her Doctor to give her some prescription sleeping pills so she could get some rest because her brain never turns off and she can't stop worrying about everything. Her primary Doctor told her "No." So she went to see her psychologist and he also told her "No." So she was calling me asking me if I knew a Doctor that would give her one of two prescription sleeping pills. She told me the names of the pills, I'm just not going to type them here.

I don't know of any Doctor's and I tried once again explaining that maybe they wouldn't give the medications because they'll interact with her present medications in a negative effect.

I wish she'd discuss this all with her husband, he's in the pharmacology business. Yet, it feels like they don't talk or discuss any problems with each other anymore.

Finally after talking with me, she's thinking she's going to find a new Doctor. Yet, I wonder if that is going to do her any good or not. Why can't Doctor's listen and explain to her the reasons they can't give her medications to help her sleep. They need to be up front with her and not just be telling her "No." They need to give her sound reasons. If they believe she'd misuse them, then they should tell her that. Yet, why can't they just prescribe her two pills at a time.

I can't be her shrink, I'm not trained. I listened. I tried to reason with her, I just tried to be her friend. I suggested this time as in times past that she should go to the ER if she's feeling like harming herself, but she won't and starts crying when you suggest such a thing.

After she calmed down a bit, she

told me she was going to go and learn to crochet with her daughter at a yarn shop we have in our community. I hope this helps her take her mind off of some of her troubles.

I should have told her since she's not working and her daughter is grown she should just sleep on her own schedule. Sleep when she can no matter if it's during the day or not.

My husband gets upset with me when I try to help in matters like this, but I feel if I don't listen to her that it may be the last straw. I don't want to be the last straw for her.

Then after our call, she seemed a little better.

Yet, then my husband started in about me getting another Doctor. I so didn't want to deal with that from him. He thinks I'm being negative, and that not all Doctor's are the same. So from the time I married him and had to deal with military doctor's I counted out how many of them I have seen. It's been 10! Yes 10. None of the ten doctor's are the ones that sent me for the correct test that finally had me diagnosed with the severe achalasia that required surgery. It was nurse practitioner that did that. I'm also thankful she had the test done at a non-military facility, so that a non-military doctor could read the results.

One! One military doctor believed me about the pain related to the achalasia and he was the surgeon who did my surgery but he's no longer stationed in this state.

How many more Doctor's will I have to go through before I find one that will believe me about my back pain and my abdominal pain?

Do I really have the energy physically or mentally to deal with any more Doctor's that don't truly listen. I don't want pills thrown at me, I want to know the reason for the pain first.

So you have here one woman wanting pills because she thinks that will be her answer and one (me) wanting no more pills because I know pills aren't the answer for me.

Pain, whether mental or physical is pain Doctors. Your patients need to be listened to. Ask your patients what they are expecting as an outcome from the visit. One may simply want good sleep, another to find the reason behind a physical pain.

Listen, the first step in communication.

Brain Glitches Getting Worse and Bending Over Is Not Good For My Brain

2010-10-17T00:44:00.000-06:00

Well, I got a letter in the mail today from the military. My assigned Doctor is no longer my assigned Doctor. They have reassigned me to another Doctor. I do not want to see anymore Doctor's, but my health problems are getting worse and my husband really wants me to see someone. My brain glitches are getting much worse. I proof read things I type or even hand write and do not see the mistakes even when I read them out loud. This is even happening when I run my finger along while reading a line. I often do not see my mistakes after proofing three or four times. Then about five minutes to a few hours later I will see the errors. It's not just spelling errors, it's sentence structure problems as well. I was never good in English and grammar, I had poor teachers in this area the whole time I was in school, except in the eleventh grade. I had a creative writing teacher that realized I only had less than a fifth grade reading level and had no idea how to diagram a sentence or any of the rules of grammar. He handed me a book near the end of the year and told me I needed to work on it myself as he didn't have time this late in my schooling to get me caught up. He didn't know how I was passed or ended up with B's in English all the years I was in school.

Some examples of my brain glitches include wanting to type the following words but other words end up on the page because of my brain glitches:

who often becomes how, or vice versa,

their often becomes there or they're or vice versa,

do becomes due or even no or vice versa,

I could make a really long list, but you get the idea.

I live out parts of words often such as:

I leave out s at the end of many plural words

I, instead of I've

it, instead of it's,

we instead of we'll.

I actually one day last week wrote down a list of all the mistakes I made. I tore it up. It was too depressing. I told my husband this is really getting me down. It makes me nervous because I wonder if I'm having mini strokes causing this. My mother died from multiple strokes. They never found out the reason of her strokes, though I think she was passing small clots from a hemangioma she had on her liver that her Doctor would never do anything about. I sometimes wonder though if she had an undiagnosed atrial fibrillation problem with her heart which can cause small clots to form and go to the brain.

My brother already has a pacemaker defribrillator in because of this problem.

I told three different military Doctor's I thought I needed an angiocath to see if I had pulmonary hypertension and blockages in my heart because my heart skips beats. Daily I have to do the Valsalva Manuever to get my heart back into normal beat at least once a day if not more often. I don't drink caffeine, so I know this is not the reason for the problem.

I have had people say it's related to panic attacks, but how? I'm doing something I like and not thinking about anything worrisome and the irregular beats will hit and make me dizzy and nauseous. I know how to do the Valsalva Manuever and usually the first time works to get it back in regular beat, but sometimes it scares me because it takes more than once to work, and I get weak and feel like I'm going to pass out when I have to do it more than once.

The irregular skipping beats even hit sometimes when I've almost fallen asleep or I've jerked myself awake with them, to sit up and do the Valsalva Maneuver.

I don't know if this is happening because of my Achalasia problem, where I have intestinal spasms. Are these spasms affecting an area in the body in the intestines that can have a vagal response upon the heart. Yes, I know that sounds weird, but as a former nurse I know that there's a part inside of the lower intestines that you don't want to stimulate too much or it can cause an unwanted heart response.

Yet, even as much as all this nonsense is going on with my body and I know I should get it checked out, I still don't want to deal with anymore Doctor's. I am burnt out with Doctor's. I have a fear of wasting my time and again not being listened to. The truth be told, I get frustrated that what I have told Doctor's over and over has never been documented in my patient chart. Yes, I have the notes, the labs, the surgery report etc.. We can get these for free from the military, we don't have to pay for the copies.

Truth be told, it wasn't even a military Doctor that sent me for the tests that finally diagnosed me via a civilian Doctor that read the results of the test that I had achalasia.

It was a nurse practitioner that saw me at the Military Base that I went to that finally after years of complaining of severe pain and ending up with aspiration pneumonia that sent me for the correct tests. Thankfully she sent me to a hospital in my town for the tests and not at the Military Base. Thankfully a non-military Doctor read those tests and said what the problem was and that it was extremely severe.

Yet, the military sent me to a specialist outside the military and he did nothing about it. He said "Well, at least you can eat." Yes, eat and end up with aspiration pneumonia. That's really smart. Then my husband asked this specialist if I could choke to death. He told my husband "Yes." He told me if I got tired of trying to eat to talk to the Doctor's at the military base about putting a feeding tube into my intestines. Yet, he denied saying this to the military Doctor's when I told them what this Doctor had said.

Over a year later, I finally got the surgery I needed down where I could eat. It helped for about two years and then I started having choking problems and lots of pain again.

Then another specialist they sent me to, was again a joke. He wouldn't check part of my intestines where I'm constantly having pain, and just told me it's part of the achalasia problems. That it's caused from a genetic nerve/muscle disorder.

I feel like I'm falling between the cracks in the health care arena of life and why must I keep hitting my head against a brick wall of uncompassionate Doctor's who don't understand the physical pain I'm in. I know people who have diabetes that get Social Security for the neuralgia's (nerve pain) they have associated with that disease, yet I can't get a single Doctor to listen to me that I can't do what I need to do to work because of pain related to numerous problems, some of which I do not think are only related to the achalasia. I think I have multiple problems that should warrant me being able to receive what I've paid into.

One of my newest symptoms is the incredible pain I get in my head if I lean over to pick something up, or to pull weeds or pick up sticks or branches off the ground, or lean over to pick my little dog up. This has been going on for about three months. If I make myself keep going in about ten minutes at the maximum it will feel like the top of my head is ready to explode off. I will have tears in my eyes because of the pain, and will have to do controlled breathing exercises to try and just get it back to a manageable level of pain.

I have to quickly sit down. I end up holding my head up and steady with my hands. My head literally pounds worse than the migraines I am prone to get. The thing is the pain is gone in about thirty minutes if I just sit and don't lean over.

Then if I try to do any physical activity that requires a little bit of effort I will be drenched in perspiration in no time flat. I don't care if I have the air conditioner on where it's cold, it will still happen. I exhaust super fast.

Yet, once again, even with all this staring me in the face, I don't want to deal with these Doctor's anymore. I don't want to deal with my husband telling me to see another one and maybe this one will listen and help. I told him this isn't going to happen because all these military Doctor's talk to each other and they pass their opinions on to one another and the patient be D________ (you can guess the word that's suppose to be here). They aren't going to get the care they need because they are already seen either as a big joke, or a liar (because the Doctor's aren't the ones experiencing the physical pain so they somehow in their God Like Minds determine that you're not having pain because you somehow have learned not to cry in front of them each time you're at the Doctor's office), or one who is taking up too much of their valuable time or are too expensive to keep dealing with. I think it's a combination of all of these factors. Plus I think military Doctor's only think the valuable patient is the one that is active duty and serving currently in the military. That's my opinion and that's the way I've been made to feel dealing with the military base I had to go to. Yes, the insurance has put out quite a bit of money on me. That's no lie. I realize that if we had no insurance I would have long ago been dead from a choking incidence related to the achalasia.

Achalasia is still very painful for me. I know after some people have the Heller Myotomy with the Dor Fundoplication Surgery they no longer have the incredible pains, but I still do. I did have quite a bit of relief after the surgery for about two years, but then it came back and continues to worsen each and every month.

I still have the incredible back pain and I wonder why nothing is ever done about it. Do I have a cavernous hemangioma on my spine pressing on nerves in there? I've asked for a spinal tap to see if there is something in there causing the pain. That's been a no go too.

I'm not a hypochondriac. If I was I would be in the ER daily, at the Doctor's daily, with a ton of different illnesses, but no, these are the same pains and just getting worse, with new symptoms I think are interrelated in some way.

The letter from the Military said this new Doctor that was assigned to me has my Doctor's notes and is familiar with the case. I don't believe he can be familiar with my case since none of my complaints are listed in there. The previous Doctor's never listed other than what they wanted to list. I think that leaves other Doctor's in the dark, but maybe that's what they prefer. Maybe they don't want to know what's wrong with you because it might mean they have to spend some of their free golf time doing research on their own time to do what's best for the patient. Maybe it would mean they would have to go to or attend via online a new medical continuing education course to update them on new advances in medical care or little known diseases and they aren't willing to spend their free time expending some brain energy learning something new that may go against everything they were previously taught.

I realize that medicine is not an exact science that new advances are being made each and everyday. Yet, I feel like I get stuck with Doctor's that don't want to progress, but merely stagnate and earn a paycheck with little involvement.

Therefore, I think I'm going to pass for now on seeing any new Doctor's. If that means I die from whatever is going on, well than so be it. People can then say it's no body's fault but her own, yet they *these doctor's I've dealt with via the military base I had to go to* need to realize they are truly the ones that burnt me out on Doctor's.

Remember I used to work as a nurse and I saw some really good and compassionate doctor's in the non-military base world that really cared about their patients. I even saw one when I worked neurology that stayed by a patient's bedside for twelve hours straight with a patient that was dying of brain and spinal cancer to give the patient his pain medications himself per the family's request of this gentleman.

I have great empathy for others in constant pain or other medical issues that don't get relief or resolve from the medical community. I feel your frustrations. I feel your money issues, because we've had to pay deductibles on things too, especially when seeing Doctor's outside the military bases. Then there are co-pays on medications and when pills are the things they keep throwing at you, being on several prescriptions at once can truly add up and then you wonder how you can buy groceries, or pay this or that bill. We've been there. I finally quit taking all the meds they were throwing at me because they weren't helping with my pains anyways.

I'd like to say to all Doctor's that have patient's in pain. Find out first what is causing the pain and find the right treatment to stop the pain before treating other issues. We the people with the pain, want the pain treated first. Life is miserable with PAIN. Worry about the high blood pressure, the high cholesterol, all the other issues after you have helped the patient with their first and foremost primary complaint. If it's not pain, then what is the patient complaining of, irregular skipping heartbeat, itching, heavy periods.

Please Doctor's listen to your patient's. Don't form your own opinions until you've addressed what your patient's feel is their primary need. If you do, then patient's lose confidence in you. There will become a communication barrier between the two of you from then on.

My primary need is I need to be on Social Security because I can't do what I need to do to make an income. If something happens to my husband and it could because he's getting older, I'll probably end up living under a bridge just because of military Doctor's that I have to deal with.

Google Friends Connect Why Do You Keep Disappearing?

2010-10-16T22:40:00.002-06:00

Once again I can't see the Google Friends Connect either on my blog or on anyone else's blogs I'm visiting. I hope they are just doing maintenance or something and that it will be back again tomorrow. Since I don't have many computer skills this is a bit troubling. The little I do know is basically self-taught. I wish I knew more, but I'm not a read it and understand it kind of person. I actually do best with one to one training and watching someone show me and allowing me then to do it and repeating it back a few times. Then I need time to write down my own notes on how to do something in a way that makes sense to my brain.

I wish I had one of those brains that was a written word learner, but we all have our own learning styles. I know that mine holds me back quite a bit. However with this kind of brain you need a patient teacher. My husband knows some things, but he can't teach patiently and I just shut down. I wish my step-son was here, he could probably show me alot of things and would be patient I'm sure. Yet, he's states away and I'm sure not coming back here any time soon. I'd be surprised if we even saw him in a few years. He never liked this state. He likes to be nearer the ocean.

I just hope this isn't happening because of something I'm doing or not doing. Well, I'll be patient again for awhile and see how things go. Google Friends Connect please come back and let me see you on my blog and all the wonderful blogs I really enjoy visiting.

What teacher had the greatest impact on your life?

2010-10-15T12:53:00.001-06:00

The above title question was posed by Eighty MPH Mom. I can honestly say there were only about 4 that had a great impact on my life.

Yet, the first teacher that really made me feel good about myself was my 6th grade teacher Mr. Housman. He found a strength in me and helped it to flourish. He recognized that me and five others in his class were beyond the math skills required for 6th grade. He helped us and by the end of the year we were doing high school Algebra I.

Why did this make me feel good about myself? Truthfully, I was only average in all my other studies.

He was a very fair teacher to all his students. Mr. Housman made learning fun. We did a stock market project that was very enlightening. Crazy experiments was something he always liked to do. One experiment resulted in an embalming fluid bottle being accidentally broken. The school had to be let out for the day to let the school rooms all air out from those strong fumes. He was told he could only do experiments on Friday afternoons from then on.

You can leave a comment at Eighty MPH Mom and let everyone know about a teacher who had a great impact on your life. Head over to Eighty MPH Mom, where you can win a Hershey’s Gift Basket !

Like The Misty Watercolors of My Mind.

2010-10-10T15:04:00.001-06:00

I love the creative spirit. Whether it be photography, poetry, music, sculpture, doll making, quilting or my favorite paintings. I have been learning on my own through some Donna Dewberry books how to do some acrylic painting, but now I'm thinking watercolors. So I was very lucky when I learned about this great review and giveaway over at http://www.funsavingmoney.net/2010/09/faber-castell-creative-studio-review.html Fun Saving Money. Faber-Castell is sponsoring a giveaway that would be sure to touch many creative spirits souls.
Please go to the link in this post to see what it is, you won't be disappointed. Even if you don't paint, perhaps this would make a lovely gift for an older child that seems to show promise that way. It would give
them the joy of learning, creating and then having the finished work of art hung proudly in the home for all to see and enjoy. Think holiday presents.
I'm entering and hope to see your names there as entrants.
God Bless.
http://creativestudio.fabercastell.com/products/catalog.aspx?q=search&a=DC87262197CA4A2889223C231E2471CC
Note the above link is to Faber-Castell and not to the give away link, the giveaway link is in the body of this post. Thank you.

10-10-10 the first one since 1910

2010-10-10T01:44:00.000-06:00

Hello and nice meeting you for the first time 10-10-10. Unless you were born on or before 10-10-1910 this is the first time you'd be meeting the 10-10-10 gang.

If you were born in 1910 or before and meeting the 10-10-10 gang again, I'd like to say congratulations to you on a long and hopefully fulfilled life.

Now I'd like to remembered as a 10 then a 10 and then another 10, wouldn't you. You can pick which categories you'd like those 10's to be remembered in. As for me those categories would be: Wife, Mother, Christian-American. I don't want to be remembered as a 10 as Bo Derek was and still is at times. I don't want to be remembered as one of the 10 most influential women in the world. I don't want to be remembered as one of the 10 richest people in the world, though I wouldn't mind a bigger piece of the pie and honestly who wouldn't.

If you got to be remembered as a 10 in 3 areas of your life, what would you hope they'd be?

Is It An Impostor Pillow Pet?

2010-10-06T23:11:00.000-06:00

Would you like to find out who has a Happy Purple Hippo? I bet your children would.

You can find out by going to http://www.Jainasmom.com and clicking on the Pillow Pets link in the giveaways section.

You'll find in the review article all the ways to find out if you're buying an actual Pillow Pet

or a knock off impostor.

Is your child, niece, nephew, foster child, grandchild asking for one, or an additional Pillow Pet as a Holiday Gift? Do you know of a child with a birthday coming up? If you do, I'd suggest you hurry and order now. A few are already out of stock and many more will probably do so as those holiday orders start rolling in. Don't wait until the last minute and disappoint you child.

Remember this is a dual gift. A snugly stuffed animal, but also a pillow.

Do you have a long car ride coming up to visit relatives during the holiday season? I think

the Pillow Pet would be welcomed in the car to rest a weary head on by any child. Don't you

remember taking a pillow in the car with you on vacation? I do, but I think the Pillow Pet would have been more fun. It can be folded up into a Pet to sit looking out the back window of your car when arriving at the home of your hosts.

Your child could dress their Pillow Pet up with holiday theme bandannas around their neck if they wished. They could read it stories, tell it secrets and give it hugs. It could be their friend

if they have a tummy ache and are stuck in bed.

Pillow Pets are still very popular with children this year. If you would like to try and win one please go to the link above in this post.

These Holes Aren't Holy.

2010-10-05T15:28:00.000-06:00

A letter to the three dogs living in my household.

Okay, you basically killed off the lawn in the backyard this year, but I'm living with that.

Okay, you dragged tiny branches all over the place that I had to pick up until we got the go ahead from the Fire Department yesterday that we could burn them and some leaves off.

Okay, I know the wild rabbits think they can come and live in our yard for free and taunt you all unmercifully.

Yet the holes you dig going after them,

"Dog-Gone It, They aren't Holy!"

I am going to break an ankle from falling into them, or fall crazy and hard, breaking my neck.

Plus I am getting sick and tired of getting the dirt off your faces, out of your nostrils,

eyes and yes even your pointed ears.

If you are going to be diggers you should have floppy ears to keep the dirt from collecting in them when you dig like you're trying to make a hole to the other side of the world.

Okay, I'm burnt out.

I'm leaving the holes for my husband to fill.

He's the one that wanted all the dogs in the first place.

He wore me down for each and every one of them.

He can work on putting a new lawn in next year.

I've put a new lawn in this landscape already four times since we've lived here.

My back can't take putting in another.

So while you take your afternoon naps sleeping under the fan next to me, looking so innocent, I'm kind of hoping you are having nightmares. Nightmares of falling down a rabbit hole only to be looking into the red eyes of

a Monster Rabbit that is going to consume you!

Okay, so that's not very Christian or Holy to be thinking this,

but if everyone saw the number of holes and how deep they really are maybe they'd be thinking the same thing.

Perhaps PCH Prize Patrol you'll come to my house soon!

2010-10-04T10:23:00.001-06:00

Mr. Beane won a million dollars from Publisher's Clearing House Prize Patrol. The Prize Patrol team recently just checked back up on him. Things don't seem normal there yet.
I could truly understand things not seeming normal. You’d probably feel like you were walking around in a dream state for quite a time. I’m pretty sure that is how I would feel. There’s a good possibility I’d lose some weight because I’m sure from time to time I’d still be jumping up and down, that might go on daily for months afterwards, especially each time I relived the moment of winning from the Great PCH Prize Patrol in my mind.
My husband’s nerves would probably wear thin too, as I would countless times say, “I told you I just knew I’d win the Publisher’s Clearing House $5,000 a week for life prize someday.” If you don't believe me on this one, then you'd just have to ask my husband if I didn't again just yesterday talk about wanting and knowing I'd win this fabulous, unbelievable prize from PCH.
I’m Happy for Mr. Beane and his family. Enjoy, Enjoy, Enjoy is what I’d like to pass onto him.

Tastefully Simple

2010-10-02T13:54:00.000-06:00

Jaina's Mommy

Jennifer Hernandez

is a Hostess for Tastefully Simple.

If you are looking for great food items as Christmas gifts this year then check out

http://www.tastefullysimple.com/home.aspx

If you place an order just make sure to list Jennifer Hernandez as your consultant,

her ID number is 0096238.

I placed my order today because I know three people I give gifts to that always love Jams and Jelly's.

So they are going to be very happy with the Berry Medley gifts they will receive this year.

If you love Strawberry Rhubarb pie, I think you'll want to pick up this set yourself,

it also has an equally delicious flavor in the set,

but I'm not going to tell you what it is.

You need to go and check it out for yourself

and while you are there check out all the other fine food items,

some you may want to make for the holidays or other special days in your lives.

Thank You

and God Bless.

Granny Loves Gift Baskets and Little Ones Books, A Great Combination.

2010-10-01T11:41:00.005-06:00

If you love reading books to your little ones, whether they are your own, foster children, nieces, nephews, grandchildren or your class, then you owe it to yourself to visit Granny Loves Gift Baskets where Little One Books is sponsoring a giveaway there.

I love so many of the books Little One Books has in it's store. I'm sure you'll find some too. Take a look around and I'm sure you won't be disappointed.

Here are three titles from the 0-12mo book area: The Going To Bed Book; Hug; Go, Dog. Go!

I'm sure you'll find some of your favorite children's authors there. The pictures are also so vibrant and sure

to catch the attention and imagination of the very young.

http://grannylovesgiftbaskets.com

Please vote for my children's story. Thank You.

2010-09-29T17:22:00.000-06:00

I just entered the Nature Made Children's Bedtime Story Book Contest.
Right now all you can see is my title page, but hopefully the rest of it will show up for you to read. Perhaps they have to proof them before they'll put up the rest of the story for safety reasons.
It's in rhyme, because that's what my brain likes to do.
They have seemed to leave the L out of Dolphin, but hopefully they'll put it in because I emailed them about that and about not being able to read anything but the title page.
You can vote daily through 11-15-2010 I believe.
If you don't want to vote for me, then maybe you'll want to make your own online story to put up for voting.
My story's name is WHAT? PHIN THE ALWAYS DOZING DOLPHIN IS ALWAYS AWAKE?
It is located at
http://naturemadesleep.net/stories/69
Thank you in advance for any votes that you are able to direct towards my story. I appreciate all my readers.
God Bless you all.

The 28th Wasn't Great.

2010-09-29T04:18:00.002-06:00

On the 27th, I typed I should just keep my mouth shut on the 28th, well I didn't. I asked some questions at a conference the hubster and I attended. I got the look from him. The one where, 'Why are you asking that? People are going to think you don't understand.' That look. He was annoyed.
Boy, I didn't want to go to this because I knew this exact thing would happen. Yet, I think there are no dumb questions, the only thing dumb is not to ask and remain clueless.
Then we go to a food court for the lunch break during this same conference. He asked me where I wanted to eat. So I told him. Once again, the look and the voice inflection where you knew he was not happy with my choice.
I got really mad. I said "Why did you ask me in the first place if you wanted to eat somewhere else. I told you we could eat where you wanted when we were coming over here. So let's just go where you want."
"No, we'll eat there, where you want," but still his tone was annoying one. With that I just told him to eat wherever he wanted because I didn't want to eat. I went and sat down and thought he went to get himself some food. No, he went off wandering around looking at stores and window shopping for things he wanted.
You know he wouldn't eat because I no longer felt like it.
I thought guys were suppose to be the ones that mean what they say, not say something while really meaning something else, like many feel us females do.
I'm tired of trying to read minds. I think I'll just become a hermit, it's easier than dealing with some people on some days.

Dog Gone It Dogs.....

2010-09-27T22:08:00.001-06:00

Well, we had to have Spike our min pin put on antibiotics because he wasn't getting any better on his own with this respiratory virus/infection thing.
Now the German Shepard I thought was well after her go rounds with antibiotics, probably has a right ear infection thing going on. I had to clean out her ear. It was gross. It had old blood and awful stuff in it. Her right ear was very red inside and very warm to touch compared to the left ear. Since I cleaned it all out the redness is down some now and it's less warm, but if it's not totally better in a day or two, she'll probably be back at the vet's office to get it checked on.
Our Belgium Malinois seems less energetic too, and his nose has been a little warmer than usual today. I hope he's not getting sick too.
I hate dog virus' because they go round and round in a circle in a home, just like a people virus' do in a home full of children.
I really think if our Belgium Malinois ends up having to go on antibiotics and antihistamines, I'm going to ask the vet to put the other dogs on at the same time so we can totally nip this in the bud.
We haven't been going to the dog park to keep our dogs from giving other dogs the virus. I think our dogs miss going too.
Well all the dogs are sleeping which is good. I need to go to bed earlier than I usually do. Things I really truly need to get done tomorrow.

I need to keep my mouth shut tomorrow with some people I'm going to be around. If I don't it will probably come back to bite me in the behind.

Holiday Palooza, come join in on the fun.

2010-09-26T13:14:00.002-06:00

Join Melissa from Outnumbered 3 to 1 and Jackie from Monkey Mayhem as we bring you great gift ideas and amazing giveaways during our "Holiday Palooza" event! The fun starts November 1st and if you grab our banner you can get an extra entry into each and every giveaway on BOTH of our sites! Feel free to invite all of your friends too!

http://www.outnumbered3-1.com/2010/09/join-us-for-holiday-palooza.html
http://monkey-mayhem.net/2010/09/holiday-palooza.html

The Spirit Made Me Do It!

2010-09-26T11:02:00.007-06:00

This past week I've been cutting up branches that we had cut out of and off of three of our very, very, big trees. They were hanging too low and would probably break if an early snow came. The front yard tree was also blocking some driving vision abilities for our next door neighbors when they were trying to pull out of their driveway. We like our neighbors next door and didn't want this to be a problem for them anymore.

So, while cutting up the items for our community's fall clean-up that was held yesterday, I felt a strong spiritual feeling I needed to cut a lot of that wood up into kindling sizes. Now I know that would make a lot more work. You have to snip off all the little shoot branches and leaves that are no good for going into a fireplace. I'd already done that to the big, thicker pieces of branches and we had them cut into 5 foot lengths or smaller. With kindling you don't want them really over 15 inches in length, so that also meant more cutting with loppers to get them to the right length.

So during the week last week I worked on this because I had such a strong feeling. My husband kept saying, "Why are you doing that? They (the health department) are just going to have all the fall clean-up stuff taken to the dump anyways." Well I kept going because I felt someone was suppose to get this wood, someone who needed it.

By 7:30 am Saturday morning I had everything piled by the side of the road for the pick-up. We had already paid our $15 to be involved in the clean-up. Anyways a long white bearded old man in an also very old beat-up truck stopped by the road where I was finishing moving a couple branches. He asked what the wood was for. I told him. He said he cooked and heated his home eight months out of the year with wood. I asked him if he wanted this. He did. He was using a cane to get around. So I asked him how he wanted it put on his truck. My husband and I loaded it up onto his truck. He was really happy with the two very large boxes of kindling I had cut up. He said this wood was going to help heat his home for almost a whole month.

Boy, I'm glad I did what the spirit told me to do. I'm also glad I got up early and got everything by the road and was outside at that exact time. I'm glad I didn't feel afraid to ask the man if he needed anything. I'm not usually like that. Usually I don't talk to strangers since I was followed by a truck last year when I was out walking my dog and a neighbor alerted me to being followed.

Well the Spirit Made Me Do It, and I'm glad I did because I was rewarded with a really great feeling in my heart, my husband felt really good too. He said he was glad someone was going to get some use out of the wood rather than it decaying at the dump.

So after he left we put out about a third of the tiny leaved branches we had for the fall pick-up instead.

The rest we will do a controlled burn on once we get the okay from the fire department in our community.

So we aren't out our $15 fee we paid to be involved.

Now if my energy levels would just kick back up I need to get started on yucky fall weeds that like to grow here. The sticker making weeds always seem to show up in the fall for some reason. So I have some to pull and need to preventative spray so we don't end up with a ton.

What's The Spirit Making You Do?

The Holiday Palooza is Coming.

2010-09-26T10:28:00.007-06:00

Christmas Is Not Far Off Now. Everyone will be hustling and bustling, but remember to try and stop to visit here http://www.outnumbered3-1.com/2010/09/join-us-for-holiday-palooza.html . If you do you'll be pleasantly surprised with a great list of gifts to buy, and maybe if you're lucky even win a few. Well, how you spend your time is up to you, but I'm going to try and stop by each day of Holiday Palooza for at least a few minutes. I hope you do.

Spike Sneezes, Fall Comes, and Stress Takes Over!

2010-09-23T16:33:00.003-06:00

My little dog Spike our four year old min pin is still sick with a respiratory infection. All he would really like to do is sit on my lap. Mostly all he is doing though is sleeping in his little dog bed covered up. Spike covers himself up. He's had to have a blanket since the day we brought him home. Now if he was feeling better he'd be sleeping on top of it because it's warm enough, but since he's not, he's under it. I keep hearing him sneeze from time to time. Thankfully he's drinking enough water and not getting dehydrated. He's eating too, but just not as much. He caught this from the female German Shepard dog we brought home from the animal shelter awhile back. She got over her respiratory infection pretty quickly with the help of antibiotics, but little Spike isn't doing as well. I think it's time to take him back to the vet, but I'll wait and see what my husband says.

Tomorrow is the start of Fall-Clean Up in the community in which we live.

I'll be so thankful that we can get the branches out of the yard that we cut from the trees, as well as a cabinet from inside the house, because it was basically busted. I wish we could take some big rocks that we don't want in the yard and some old brick, but they said "No" to that. I think the $15 fee for getting rid of the branches will be a fair price. Then we'll have to get the okay to burn some of the twigs and leaves. We tried to get the okay from the fire department here the other day, but they said "No controlled burns today." I wondered why, I thought maybe the wind was a little too much, but my husband said that wasn't the reason because he asked. Then a few moments later we heard sirens. So it was probably because they had calls they needed to respond to and didn't have enough volunteers to staff at that time in case our fire got out of control.

We've burned here before without incident, but I can understand if you only have a crew of a certain number of volunteers available you may have to tell people no when they want to do a controlled burn.

My husband has to do a two and a half hour stress test soon. So the Cardiologist's office called and went over all the things he can't and can do and have to eat and drink before the testing and such. They also needed to know if he has problems being in tight spaces or if he uses oxygen. So I wrote everything down and answered all the questions. I'm glad they called or I would have called them to ask if he could take his medications. He can and that makes me feel better. I'm glad the insurance company approved this test. I've wanted him to have it for a few months now. I want to make sure his heart stents are still clear and he has no new blockages going on, especially since they had to change his cholesterol medications. The medication started giving him muscle pains and making his knees super weak. He says his knees feel stronger since they switched him off the old pills and onto the new ones. I don't understand that since they are all still in the statin class of medications. I can't take the statins at all they cause me too much pain. My younger sister actually has an allergy her Doctor says to that class of medications. My mom did too, so it's probably something genetic and my side of the family has a few weird things that way.

Well I hope none of you are sneezing, that you can enjoy the fall that is seasonally here,

and that you are stress free.

God Bless you all.

Whiney me will keep it simple, I'm hurting bad.

2010-09-17T16:18:00.002-06:00

I woke up today with incredible upper back spasms. I thought it was referred pain maybe from my esophagus. It isn't because warm water hasn't helped, my meds for GERD, prescription like antacids haven't helped, and neither have over the counter pain medications. I have been dealing with this incredible pain for over eight hours now. The problem is some of the other pain associated with it makes you think that you might be having a heart attack. Yet, I'm sure if I go to the ER, the Doc's there will just tell me it's a migraine effect. I don't have a headache at the moment. Sure, I have jaw and chin pain, but not what I call a migraine.
I'm tried of this, there was stuff I wanted and needed to get done today, but it's not happening because when
I tried I really intensified the pain.
Well, I wish I had something cheery to blog about, but since I haven't done anything at all today there isn't a thing. Well, maybe a couple small things, I voted for a friends photo in a contest and I told my nephew's wife about a sweepstakes I thought she might be interested in. That's about it though.
I hope the hubby gets home before nine tonight. I miss him. He's my rock when I feel horrible like this. I'm glad I have him in my life. So even though I'm not lucky in health, I am lucky in love and companionship.
I hope you all have blessed and happy weekends with the ones in your lives that you love and enjoy being around.
God Bless.

Didn't have to do jury duty.

2010-09-16T13:41:00.004-06:00

I didn't have to do jury duty after all. I called the number on the form letter they sent me. It said numbers between such and such, report at such and such a time. It said all others were excused from jury duty for the remainder of this year.
Then they went on and said what couldn't be brought into the court house, etc..
Well, this wouldn't work for me at all. No food or fluids. I have to have 40 ounces of warm water available at all times in case my esophagus goes into spasms. I have to force myself to drink it quickly to stop the spasms. It works, the warmth of the water filling up my esophagus quickly really is the only thing that helps.
Now, see my non-compassionate Doctor at Ft. Carson wouldn't give me an excuse to get out of jury duty, even though I have a diagnosis of Migraines, a diagnosis of achalasia, a somewhat, but non-military diagnosis of fibromyalgia, a genetic nerve/muscle disorder, intestinal spasms etc., chronic upper to mid right back pain, etc.... Basically I'm in pain 24-7.
Sometimes I walk through life like a zombie because I can't sleep due to all the pain. When I do sleep, per sleep studies done, I rarely hit REM sleep and not long enough either, I also desaturated on my oxygen levels. So basically I don't really hit a long enough restful sleep state even when I do sleep.
Now, how in her Doctor educated right mind did she think that I could possibly be a good and alert enough jury member? I don't even like to drive because I don't think I'm clear headed enough much of the time. I think I have only driven two times in the past year out of very needed necessity only. We only have one vehicle too. I live in a community with no bus or taxi service. I'd have to go one town away to serve jury duty so that would have meant renting a car to get there and back, because my husband works long hours and commutes somewhat to his job. That would have set us back financially I am sure.
On top of that the judicial building doesn't have enough parking. They built where they are boxed in with business' and churches built around them. They actually have to rent some parking spaces during the week from the Baptist Church to the west of them. They give you this big old list of where you can't park and where you can park.
Since my younger sister has already been down this road before with them last year serving jury duty, she said make sure you get there about six am in the morning if you have to serve or you're not going to find anywhere to park.
So you can't believe how grateful to my Creator God in Heaven that he answered my prayer about this one. Now I hope he does that for the remainder of my life too.
It's not that I wouldn't serve if I felt well. If I felt well I'd even be working to make our family some income, since the Doctor won't help me get Social Security (by the way I paid into that for many years when I was able to work). So, it's not that I don't know my civic duty, it's just you want someone on the jury that doesn't have to run to the bathroom immediately when nature calls, and no I'm not talking the business that those bladder pills supposedly work on.
You don't want someone whose esophagus goes into spasms, making me sound like I'm having an asthma attack, though this isn't asthma. Then my only thought is on my warm water and getting it down so the spasm will stop or at least be lessened so I can breath. Then
afterwards I'm dealing with the incredible amount of pain still left. You don't want someone who'll have to be wearing sunglasses because the light is too bright and might trigger a migraine headache (yes, even in my own home I have to wear sunglasses when my hubster opens up curtains and blinds).
Anyways, my hubster is still after me to try and get another provider at Ft. Carson, but I'm so done with these non-compassionate people who don't get people in chronic and often times acute pain on top of that.
Yet, I've got to look on the positive side, maybe the catching away or Rapture as some call it will happen very soon, even this year, and maybe I'll never have to deal with this issue ever again. That would be totally wonderful.

A new blogger and already having problems.

2010-09-15T12:32:00.001-06:00

Well, my followers aren't showing. It says I have ten when I go hunting in the design area of this little blog, and I haven't removed them, so where are they? Beats me. I tried each and every area and all the drop downs looking. I went to ask blogger and they just have tons of questions like that from last year and it said they were working on it and the problem should be fixed shortly. Ahh well, I can't find out who all ten are, though I already know who a few are.
Bummer.

Yee Haw, Kick Up Your Spurs.

2010-09-15T10:36:00.000-06:00

I know lots of people only wear boots at fair times, but I know many others like my husband who wear them daily. My husband loves his western boots. He loves Justin Boots.
Now even though he has a pair of Justin Boots and they have wear left in them, I thought it would be great if he could have a nice pair to wear to church or if we are going out somewhere nice. So what Yee Haw good luck to find out about what's going on over at Eighty MPH Mom. Head over to Eighty MPH Mom, where you can win a pair of Justin Boots (winner’s choice)!
Good luck, but really I'm kind of crossing my fingers for myself. I'd love to win a pair for the hubster for an Anniversary present.
Just click on the Bold Eighty MPH Mom above for a direct link to her review giveaway.

Freezing Home Made Stuffed Bell Peppers.

2010-09-12T20:19:00.001-06:00

I spent several hours in the kitchen today making five meals worth of stuffed bell peppers and then freezing them. I was able to get some stuffed bell peppers on sale, so I stocked up. I was also able to get five pounds of rice for a great price. So what better to do with them then make stuffed bell peppers.
Yes, from start to finish, since I only have two pots large enough to cook the bell peppers in, and to make that much rice in, I had to do things in stages.
1. I got the peppers blanched and semi-softened in boiling salted water, then I drained and put them aside to cool.
2. Next in one of the large pots I made the rice.
3. In the other pot I started browning frozen hamburger, two large packages worth. So browning hamburger that way takes awhile because you do it at lower heat until all the hamburger is unthawed and broken up, then you can up the heat a bit.
4. Then I added into the hamburger two large chopped onions.
5. Once the hamburger onion mixture is done and drained, I'm able to add it into the large pot of rice. Thankfully this pot is big enough to pour everything in, then it takes a bit of work and a large long spoon to mix it all up thoroughly.
6. I stuff the cooled bell peppers with the mixture. I then let them cool.
7. Now I wrap each individual bell pepper up with plastic wrap trying to have no trapped air. Then I put a meals worth in a gallon sized freezer bag, get out the air and zip close. I put the cooking instructions on the bag, in case someone else ends up cooking them instead of me.
8. When I do go to cook them I will first add tomato sauce to the top of each bell pepper.
9. To cook, remove from freezer bag, and unwrap each bell pepper. Place in a baking dish that has about an inch of water in the bottom of the pan.  Bake in a 350F degree preheated oven for about 1 hour and 10 minutes if starting with the frozen bell pepper. If you have let them unthaw in the refrigerator you can cut down the time probably to 45 minutes. Ovens vary and so do tastes, so basically you want to get the bell pepper warmed all the way through. Some people do not add the tomato sauce on top until the last 15 minutes of cooking, because they like their tomato sauce to still be runny/saucy. We like ours to make kind of like a tomato crust on top of the bell pepper so we usually put in on sooner.
10. These bell peppers can be changed up by the type of rice you use or any seasonings you may want to add to the rice. Some people add in taco seasoning when cooking the rice. Some others add spaghetti sauce in place of half of the water when making the rice. It depends on your preferences.
We tend to like the standard Bell Peppers around here, so I mostly, but not always stick to that recipe.
Now I have 5 meals in my freezer that are easy to cook.
11. Just add a side salad and the meal is done.

September 11, 2001

2010-09-11T19:25:00.001-06:00

I've been reading on several blogs how some people want the Mosque to be built near ground zero because we have to forgive and forget. I've also read that the Mosque should be allowed to be there because we have religious freedom in this nation.

This is my opinion and you can disagree if you want to. I'm going to use my freedom of speech right here on this little blog of mine. I disagree with the ones that say forgive and forget. You can forgive, but you do not have to forget. You need to remember, so you can pray that it never happens again. You can remember so if you encounter a person making verbal threats against this country that you can contact appropriate law enforcement agencies, so they can then determine if this is an individual that would follow through on said threats. I disagree with allowing the Mosque to be built near ground zero. They can still practice their faith in this country, and do. They just do not need to do it in a location that is going to cause grief and continual pain to those who lost loved ones on September 11th. There are already several Mosque's/prayer rooms in New York, and I am sure they would allow another to built somewhere else if needed.

Respect and kindness is a two way exchange. I don't think it is respectful or kind to ask persons who lost loved ones at ground zero to have to say I forgive you and please build your Mosque recreation prayer room center where it brings back horrible memories and pain to me. Maybe zoning laws need to be made to preserve this area from any faith to build another church in a so many block radius of ground zero. I mean the ones that are already built could stay, but any new ones not be given the zoning okay.

So there I said it, no hoodwink here. Hoodna (I spelled this phonetically because I do not know how it's spelled in it's Muslim based language) is not something I believe is right in any circumstance. I will not trick you to achieve my own goal at your expense.

I truly think that being a Muslim is not only holding to the Muslim faith, but the Muslim political viewpoint as well, I don't think they have a true separation between faith/government. I think it goes hand in hand. So

with that written here, I say just do not be hoodwinked. Listen to what they have to say, but don't always believe it all as true or just.

I just hope that all who lost their lives on that day are in Heaven, otherwise their lives were for nothing and nothing can bring them back for a second chance or a possibility of an eternal life with The One and Only Creator of All.

Yogurt, Yogurt, Yogurt.

2010-09-08T18:59:00.000-06:00

Okay, I've been going to a lot of blogs which are having yogurt giveaway entry opportunities. The brands being given away are wonderful. Yet, you may or may not have noticed I haven't entered any of these giveaway entry opportunities. Why you may ask? The answer is because of my hubby.
The last time we went to Sam's club he bought so much yogurt. Actually one of the brands mentioned in most of the giveaways at various great blog/review sites. However, he didn't check the expiration date. They were pretty short. Now this family is having to force feed themselves the yogurt before it expires on us and it's wasted money down the drain.
I like Sam's club and the great values you can get, but one must remember to check the expiration dates and think can our family possibly use this all up by then or not. We didn't do that. I go shopping with a list and what we need to get, but I have a husband that adds to what we end up picking up in the store while we are in there. I think we'll be leaving here and it will only cost such and such. Then we hit the check-out and I view the added items in the cart. I cringe, but there they are.
I know, I know, complain, complain, complain. Many of you out there would love to have a husband that would go and help you grocery shop. That's all well and good, if it's actually help and they stick to the list, but if they go wandering off and you don't know where they are, start sticking items into the carts without telling you and don't compare brands with the coupons you have, it can actually undermine your attempts at keeping on track with the grocery budget.
I'm feeling a slight sense of dread come over me as we gear up to go major grocery shopping very soon once again. I'm doing all the right things, cutting and organizing the coupons, planning out meals and what we'll need, but it can all come undone. Yet, somehow I never let it. I usually purposely shop under the price point the budget will allow just to make allowances for these types of things he does. It's called a compromise, yet it's one he's not aware of. I don't argue with him about the things I find in the grocery cart, I just tell him to let me have a minute so I can check and see if we have a coupon we can use along with that. As I tabulate the subtotal with each item we get I do that at full price and not with the coupon subtracted. That helps me to cover some of what he does. When I'm tabulating in my head with each item and say my total is now $123.39, I just round it up in my head to $124 before I add the next item on to it. That also seems to help cover some of what he throws in that I don't know about and also for some of the taxes there may be at the end on none grocery type items (cleaning supplies etc.).
Have I ever gone over our allotted budget? Yes, a few times, by $5 to maybe $25 dollars, but rarely because of the way I now do this. So if any others out there that have a spouse that shops with you and throws stuff in the basket, not on your shopping list, I suggest maybe you try the above system to help you stay within budget.
Here's to living in a tight economy.

Poor Spike Is Sick Now.

2010-09-07T12:35:00.000-06:00

Little Spike my min pin has now caught the upper respiratory infection from Duchess (the German Shepard we got from the animal shelter). She's now better, but poor Spike has been sick a couple of days now. He's had his first antibiotic, so hopefully he'll get better soon.
All he does is either sneeze or sleep. He wants to constantly be on my lap too, and if he isn't he starts shaking like he's scared. So even though my legs are tired, he's on my lap sleeping.
I hope he feels better soon.
I'm saying a prayer my big dog the Belgium Malinois doesn't catch this. I hope his resistance is strong. Drag that doggy virus' go around quick in a family, just like people virus' do.
At least no doggy diarrhea with this virus though, so I do have a lot to be thankful for. Doggy poo in the house would make me want to cry.
Well, have a great day in your neck of the woods. Make sure to take your vitamins and minerals and pro biotic yogurts so maybe you can keep from getting sick.
I'm going to see if Walgreens is giving the flu shot in my neck of the woods this weekend, because I maybe have yucky jury duty next week, and
I tend to catch everything with a vengeance. I already have too many other
health problems to deal with, without getting that.
God Bless you and yours.

Slept Most Of The Day

2010-09-05T22:01:00.000-06:00

I was so sick last night with my achalasia. Severe, wrenching spasms all the way from the top of my intestinal system to the end. I couldn't help it, but even though I have this often and should be used to it, I cried my eyes out for over an hour last night.
I didn't sleep in the same room as my husband last night because he went to bed really early for him and I
didn't want to wake him up when I finally went to bed at 11. Good thing too, because an half-hour later the
spasms started with a roar and didn't end until around 8 this morning. Between 4 and 5 I broke down and
bawled like a baby.
My husband didn't hear me, he can sleep through anything. I did think about waking him up and having him
take me to the hospital, but I didn't want to go and really have nothing done, or to be given something I might
have a horrible reaction to like I have had in the past. I didn't want to end up feeling worse than I already did, though I don't believe I could have felt much worse.
I am still very sore and tender everywhere. I feel like someone who has done at least a thousand sit-ups with no warm-ups, no conditioning, nothing and had to do them in a rapid fire manner.
I'm still very nauseated too and I still feel weepy, though I'm not letting myself cry.
So today, I let my husband know what went on last night. He was kind of mad, he said he would have taken me straight to the hospital. He went to the store and bought me BEANO. He somehow thinks that will help.
So, I'll give it a try to humor him, but I don't think that has anything to do with anything. It's the achalasia and the genetic nerve/muscle thing again. I went through it last week and the week before, I just never told him and he was at work those times.
Any Doctor that thinks giving someone with this condition a Heller Myotomy with a Dor Fundoplication surgery on the cardiac sphincter muscle is going to make the pain/discomfort/spasms etc. related to achalasia
go away or even tolerable is so off the mark. I still often have the heart attack feeling pains from this condition, and now more and more often the full digestive tract spasms that truly double a person over and
don't just last a few minutes, but truly hours on hours.
Anyways, enough whine, whine, whine, it doesn't do any good anyways, my Dear, Sweetheart of a Husband didn't expect anything from me today. He did it all (thank Goodness it was his day off). He even went and got the BEANO hoping it will help, and did the meals, took care of everyone and the dogs. He let me go
to back to bed whenever I wanted and let me have the house temperature where I wanted. See he likes it
warmer than me most of the time, so it was very comforting to have the house a little cooler to make me
feel better.
I am so fortunate to have a man like this in my life. One that doesn't expect the world out of me when I'm
in a bad way, even with those bad ways coming more and more frequently again like when I first got ill with this disease. A genetic nerve/muscle condition that hits with spasms many places in my body including the areas that the achalasia include. No one has given me a name for it specifically. They won't test me for
two diseases I think may be causing this. I'm glad I have a husband who believes me and gets what I've
been going through, because the uncaring Doctor's at Fort Carson that I've seen certainly do not. Well,
one did, but he's not stationed there anymore. This is the only health insurance we can afford, it's through
the government, and all I can say is government run health insurance isn't going to be cracked up to what
everyone thinks it's going to be. I can attest to that already. You get what you get and then you suffer
unless they deem you one of the valuable people. A retired military persons spouse isn't one of the
valuable people. The active duty men and women who are serving are valuable, but the rest of us be
D_____. I don't like to cuss, but one can figure out what the rest of the word is meant to be.
Well I'm still wiped from last night, drained of all of my energy, which I have little of anyways, so I'll
be going to bed early, just hope I can sleep and get re-energized. I hope no repeat performances tonight.
For those of you who can sleep and get rested, you truly need to give God a prayer of thanks for that
luxury, because for those of us out here who often can't we know it is a true blessing from the Lord.

New Zealand Quake

2010-09-03T15:38:00.000-06:00

For any of those who read the blog A Merry Life, you might realize the beautiful young lady Mary of this blog is now living in New Zealand. Let us all say a prayer she, Kepa, and Kepa's family are all safe. I realize Auckland and Christchurch are over 400 miles apart, but still this situation can impact the whole country on
some level.
Please pray now for New Zealand.
Thank you.

Do you want to design the new glade candle?

2010-09-02T17:08:00.000-06:00

http://www.gladedesignandshine.com/Gallery/default.aspx?candleholderid=17199

I entered one of my designs today. Read the rules, you can enter more designs than you thought.
You have a chance at $20,000 in prizes. I'd love to win the grand prize. I bet you would too.
Check it out and take a chance. Good luck.

A Printing Coupons Kind Of Day.

2010-09-02T15:59:00.000-06:00

I haven't gotten much done yesterday or today. I've been battling severe esophageal and back spasms that I am sure in some point is related to whatever nerve/muscle disease that caused my achalasia. The pain has been immense like it was before my surgery. Literally the pain is like that of a heart attack. Pain in the back, chest, upper arms, neck, face. Intense pain. Yesterday I got through it, but it lasted a little over three hours.
Truly I was almost at the point of calling my husband and begging him to come home from work and taking me to the hospital, but I have been there before and the hospital does nothing. Actually the last time they made me sicker by giving me two drugs which I had an immediate allergic reaction too and I couldn't breath etc., which required other meds to undo the first meds. It was a mess. I left there feeling worse than when I went. They want you to follow up with your own Dr., but she doesn't do anything. She doesn't believe me. Today I went through the same thing but, (Thank You God In Heaven) it only lasted a little over two hours. So naturally I am drained physically. I have things I need to do, like cleaning my house, changing sheets etc., but I can't. It's not that I don't want to, it's that I literally am so drained from the pain that I think if I tried I'd pass out.
So, to at least be somewhat productive and earn my keep around here, I am using the internet to print out coupons I can use when we go grocery shopping next. Hopefully we can find some good bargains, but I don't see many around on food right now, except cereal. We do eat cereal, I just wish there were more coupons available on some of the more grown up varieties.
Hey, body of mine you better listen to me. I can't print coupons everyday and let that be the only thing I get accomplished. Please body behave and let me have some pain free and energetic days when I can please get some much needed things done. A Printing Coupons Kind of Day should only come once in a blue moon, not days back to back.

Las Vegas mailman won the latest big prize from Publisher's Clearing House.

2010-09-01T20:04:00.000-06:00

Okay, so I get to keep entering the Publisher's Clearing House sweepstakes nearly everyday again. I didn't win the latest big prize. Joseph B. (won't put his last name because I don't have permission to do so) a mailman from Las Vegas did. Congratulations and enjoy your win. I wonder if he's been entering everyday for numerous years like I have, or if he won with his first entry like some people have.
I'll go back to playing the what if game.

So You Want To Understand Us Women A Little Better Do You?

2010-08-31T18:16:00.000-06:00

This post is directed at the husbands of the world that think their wives are nuts for the hyper frenzied cleaning mode they go into before relatives arrive.

First and foremost do not say to us, "No one is going to notice how clean the house is, because they are coming to enjoy your company." Absolutely do not make jokes about, "What's that dust bunny going to do under the bed, come out and attack Aunt Jo? If it does I bet Aunt Jo beats it into a pile of dust in 1.1 seconds."

Men you are that men. Women do really check out other women's homes and realize if they are clean or dirty and actually do think thoughts like: 'Wow, is it safe to touch that gross looking faucet handle to wash my hands in this gas station looking bathroom. I wish I had a can of Clorox spray with me right now.'

It's in our nature. We internally fret when our homes are not clean all the time, but somehow if it's just our immediate family being exposed to our lack of desire to clean, tiredness, health issues or bad attitude then we can somehow make mental excuses to let it slide another day, okay another week if truth be told. Yet,

if we know it's another adult female that is coming to our home, or the pastor of the church, then WOW (Woman Overdrive Work) kicks in. We realize we have x amount of things to do to make our home presentable. With only a certain amount of time to do this in, either help or get out of the way. Do you want

extra favors or a special meal during this time period, fine then either do it yourself or call Domino's Pizza for

home delivery.

We women wish you men where born with this gene. Now for those of you women who have a husband who

understands and seems himself to have this gene, then you need to give your mother-in-laws a high five for instilling these learned traits in their son. I say learned because there is no way they were born with them, that's strictly a female thing.

I am sorry for those men who have a wife that does not seem to have been born with this gene at all. She was born with it, but somehow these traits have been unlearned in her at some point. If it's getting to you well all I have to say is tell it to the talk shows, hire Merry Maids, and roll up your own sleeves if you want a clean home or at least one that's not like the show Hoarder's on TV.

I bet you're wondering how my home looks at the moment. Well, everything is picked up and put away in the rooms a visitor would see, but they still need dusted, vacuumed and moped. Yet, I'm not expecting any company, if I were you could believe this house would be clean.

I was inspired to write this post after reading the blog post at In Through The Out Door.

5K A Week I Can Live With That.

2010-08-31T14:00:00.000-06:00

Okay, you may think I'm crazy. I have been entering Publisher's Clearing House for major years. I won't tell you exactly how long, but it's been really a long time.
Do I really believe I will win? Yes I do. I think the law of averages has to someday fall that giant prize right into my wide lap. I realize it's a few billion to one shot, but the win has to come to someone someday and it might as well be me. That means I am diligent in entering. I generally enter at least once a day.
I'd love to pay off every single bill we owe. To fix up the things that need to be fixed up. To get some of the things I constantly tell myself "No it's not in the budget."
I know I'll have to keep my husband in line if we won so he wouldn't spend it all so quickly that we wouldn't have the money to pay tithe to God or taxes to the government. I generally think he is pretty level headed, but who knows in such a situation how he would react. I'm pretty sure he'd go and buy a new vehicle and fix up the garage.
There would be so many things a person could do with $5,000 a week for life even if after tithe and taxes where you only had about $2,000 left.
Be honest have you ever played the what if game? What if I won the Publisher's Clearing House $5,000 a week for life game? I'll be honest I have.
It actually reminds me of a game me and my younger sister played when we were little girls. My mom would give us the big Sears Catalog when she was done with it. Sis and I would pretend we each had $10,000 and then we'd circle what we would buy from the catalog and add up the prices to make sure we didn't go over the amount of pretend money we had to spend. She'd circle in red ink and me in blue ink.
I think she was a better shopper and had better taste in clothing than I did even way back then.
Well, while I'm waiting for Publisher's Clearing House to knock at my dirty home's door (I so wish I could get the energy to vacuum, dust, mop etc.), I'll just keep cutting coupons and trying to find the best deals out there. Yet, I'd probably still use coupons even when, not if, when I win, because it's in my blood. Giving up using coupons would probably be as painful to me as someone who smoked having to give up their cigarettes. You laugh? I'm pretty sure it would be to me.
God Bless.
P.S. Publisher's Clearing House Knock Hard at my door because sometimes the crazy doorbell doesn't want to ring.

After All Were A Family Even If States Separate Us And Internet Dreams Do Too.

2010-08-28T23:43:00.000-06:00

Wow, just a few minutes ago I found out that my nephew's wife is starting her own little business on the great world wide web.
Congrats Angela. I know people are going to be buying your great homemade sweets and enjoying them as much as your friends and family do. I can tell from your Facebook page that this is where you truly shine and what you are constantly doing.
So I salute you, send you good luck and will even say a prayer that many good things await your business venture.
Here is the internet address for all of those who might like to take a look at her first two edibles she has online
http://www.artfire.com/users/bakedgreats

Poor Duchess is sick!

2010-08-28T22:54:00.000-06:00

We took our new dog (a German shepard, maybe a little husky mixed in) that we got from the animal shelter on Wednesday to our vet today. Poor doggy since we got her every time she sleeps she ends up having episodes where she starts choaking, then shakes because she's scared. These choaking episodes were lasting about five minutes. I was so scared for her too. Then after the choaking episodes she'd have sneezing episodes. Well the vet thinks it's just an upper respiratory infection and she choaks on the post nasal drips. So she put her on antibiotics for 10 days. We can't put the antibiotics in pork products or cheese. I just wrapped them up in a little soft bread to get her to take them. So she's now had her first two doses. I sure hope this helps. I haven't had good sleep now for 3 days. She also got her other shots she needed since the animal shelter only gave her a one year rabies vaccine. We asked the vet if we could get her the dog influenza vaccine, but our vet doesn't give those. We know one city away is having an outbreak of it with the dogs in their region.
My husband was nice enough to watch the dogs this afternoon since it was his day off, but he worked last night and was tired too. I was able to get a much needed two hour nap. I can't believe how well that nap worked at helping me to get rid of the headache I've had for three days now.
All of the dogs have blended into a nice little family now and get along very well.
We have alot to teach Duchess. She does sit when told, but doesn't know how to heal, how to get in and out of vehicles. We ended up having to lift her in and out today to get her to the vet. We have a dog ramp to get our dogs in and out of the Jeep Liberty, but she's afraid of it even with coaching. Hopefully in time she'll get better. We had a short walk out with all the dogs. She ignored most of the dogs barking at her from back yards of others, but two dogs she wanted to go to. My husband had to take quit a bit of effort
to keep her on track near those yards.
Today is her last day of pain pills post the spaying on Wednesday morning at the animal shelter. She seems to be doing well and doesn't look like she's in pain. I'm kind of glad the pain pills will be over because I wonder if they might make her too relaxed and that might be part of the choaking issue.
I don't think she was ever given treats by her former owner. Anytime the last three days we've tried to give her a dog bone she'll turn her head away. She does eat her dry dog food just fine. The vet even tried to give her a treat and said she knew what I meant after the dog turned her head away from her fancier treats.
She's now asleep on the extra large orthopedic dog bed that is right beside this computer table. I hope she doesn't choak tonight.
The vet doesn't think our other dogs will get sick from her since they are in good health and had all the extra shots in early August this year. Yet, if they do we'll take them in.
We can get Duchess her Bordello (I think that is how it's spelled) shot after she's finished with her antibiotics. We go to the dog park, so it's recommended.
My husband fell asleep in the recliner. I think I'll leave him alone for a bit. Poor thing he worked last night and then stayed up instead of going to bed at all today.
Well, I'll sign off for now and wish everyone out there a good nights rest and a happy rest of the weekend.
God Bless.

What's special about September 1st, 2010? BABIES

2010-08-27T16:08:00.000-06:00

I visit Minnesota Mamas Must Haves often and I think you should to, especially on September the 1st. If you do you'll be able to enjoy great reviews about wonderful baby products. You'll be able to enter to win some fantastic giveaways. It's not just for people with babies, or expecting them. You can win a prize for a baby shower gift.
Minnesotamamasmusthaves.com
Thanks for reading this beginners very simple starter blog.

A Little About Me, but not everything.

2010-08-25T10:46:00.000-06:00

This is going to be a simple first time post today.
I have never had a blog before and I don't have
any computer programming degrees. So bear
with me as I try and do the best I can and learn
along the journey.
I am a married Christian woman. I love my husband.
I love my step-son, though at the moment he is living
with his biological mother in another state far away.
We have three dogs, one we are picking up from the
animal shelter today after she's spayed.
With the new dog addition to our family we will have
a large sized dog, a medium and a small.
I no longer work due to multiple health problems.
My husband is quite a bit older than me, but is still
working. He is a retired Marine, but once a Marine
always a Marine, at least in their hearts.

Well that's all I will post for today, more later.