My Next Mom

A poem/song lyrics written 6/25/2011 2-5:30AM by Lauralee F. Hensley

Idea came to me after watching so much of the Tot Mom Terrible Trial Stuff, then listening to the beautiful music of Josh Groban. Then my mind was like that little girl could have had a beautiful life, if she'd just been given to someone who really cared. Adoption would have been an option.

Though this isn't exactly just about the little girl in Florida, it is about so many children that are emotionally discarded by their parents because of parents self-need over shadowing the needs of the children they are meant to love and protect.

Title: My Next Mom

Mom,

My Next Mom is so proud of me,

of who I've grown up to be.

Mom, I wish you knew

My Next Mom.

She is so good, it's almost hard to believe.

I'll always remember when

My Next Mom-

turned deep pain into deep love;

love I believe was a life changing gift from above,

that I will always try to pass gratefully on.

_______

My Next Mom

helped silence my hearts' angry fury,

all the times I couldn't understand fully,

why you chose your next fix and abandoned me.

I'm sure the drugs caused my secret deformities.

My Next Mom

looked past them, holding me close and tenderly.

To her I was never a burden or mistake,

easily tossed from a car after a tap on the brake.

________

Mom,

My Next Mom is so proud of me,

of who I've grown up to be.

Mom, I wish you knew

My Next Mom.

She is so good, it's almost hard to believe.

I'll always remember when

My Next Mom-

turned deep pain into deep love;

love I believe was a life changing gift from above,

that I will always try to pass gratefully on.

_________

Mom,

My Next Mom gave me a real home and security,

though she wasn't rich, young, or even pretty.

She had a true inner strength and beauty.

Over time she instilled trust and good in me.

Mom, why am I drawn to your marker in this cemetery?

I've wished you would have sought out help and became drug free.

Babies even get sold for a next drug stake.

Some Moms do their time with casket mate Crystal Snowflake.

__________

Mom,

My Next Mom is so proud of me,

of who I've grown up to be.

Mom you will never know

My Next Mom,

Trading life for skeleton keys, futile were your twenties.

Mom, I'll always remember when you decided-

that deep pain needed more drugs.

I know now was your life changing deception con,

and Mom your legacy will not be passed on,

because of the love of

My Next Mom.

UNSUBSCRIBING TO BLOGS AND EVEN OTHER EMAILS THIS WEEK

Due to my information being stolen by Lulz Sec (who I personally feel is nothing but an extortion group, whether the extortion is for personal fame gain, or possibly future monetary gain,  by fear and intimidation in my opinion) I am taking safety precautions of unsubscribing to most blogs I follow as well as company advertisements I allow to be sent to me. 
I don't know if their posting of my information over the internet at various sites  had anything to do with possibly someone getting into my system and causing my previous computer to totally crash with no recovery ability, or if all the new scam mails that are overloading my junk mail (especially from Nigeria, the UK, China etc., that say you have a relative that died or you won this or that and send them all your info) is related to their exploits or not.  I'm not sure if their posting of such, lead someone to get into my system and steal info to companies that require us to do business with them via the internet or not, but we were affected financially and had to take steps to change account numbers and more with such companies. 
This really stinks.  I'm not a well person already and this has affected me both emotionally and physically.
Anyways, for your sites safety and mine, I'm trying to unsubscribe, so in case they can get to your locations via mine that it will not happen.
I suspect some people were already phishing and attempting to piggyback on my email address since Lulz Sec posted my information , as someone from London had logged onto my account there per Facebook info.  I know no one in London, and I've never been there, so I already know that Lulz Sec probably caused this to happen by posting the info.  Someone since the Lulz Sec posting of my information also tried to purchase some monetary exchanges using our info, but that was stopped by our financial institution.
We already informed LifeLock and they too are on the outlook.
Cyber Crime is not justified Lulz Sec, even by your so-called motives of good.  They are not good when they hurt people like me.  I never did anything to you Lulz Sec, but I truly suspect that what you did posting the information has in fact hurt me and my family.  I believe you are at least someone at fault in some way by allowing my information that I never gave you permission to post was put out on the internet where people could get into my system, that information included my password.  That was my personal property only to share with those I wanted.  It was not your property.  You stole something of mine whether you see it that way or not.
I hope those persons behind Lulz Sec are caught, sued, imprisoned.   Personally I don't believe extortion is protected in any country on this planet.  So I don't know if your group is located in the USA, or another country, or various countries around the world.  I just hope where your members are located that the authorities  are hot on your heels and catch you very, very, soon.

Lulz Sec got me! Did you know about Facebook Wormholes?

Lulz Sec stole my email address and my password.  They've posted it on the internet.  Please everyone change your passwords to protect yourself.
Change your passwords frequently everywhere you go.
This has made me physically sick, as well as emotionally upset.  I feel violated, put at risk because of them, and more.
I didn't ask for this, just like I didn't asked to be raped when I was a kid.
Only this time I'm not going to be silent!!!!!!!
These people think they are doing a service, well I am here to tell them it was not a service and was crap to me. 
I didn't ask them for this.  I did nothing to them and yet here they are hurting me.
They should be caught, then sued by the people and companies they've done this too, then finally put in jail for life.
They've taken away my right of pursuit of happiness.  I am definitely not happy, and am very afraid of the internet right now.
I wonder if this has any link to Facebook telling me people from London were getting into my Facebook account.  I also wonder if this has a correspondence with people getting our bank account number and us having to change all that just recently.  They were trying to buy some kind of foreign currency.
If Lulz Sec wasn't responsible for those items happening, maybe they still put me at risk for such by posting this information on the internet.
I don't know if I want to have anything to do with the computer anymore.  They are more than criminals in my book, they are life suckers.  They suck the enjoyment out of life.  I have very little in life and the little I have they are taking away from me.
I am so very depressed now.  I don't know who I can trust anymore or if I even want to try.
I am so thinking about cancelling my Twitter, Facebook and Blog pages and just saying goodbye to the computer.
Problem is some of my bills I have to pay must be paid via automation.
Maybe the Government and other businesses will rethink it being mandatory that your bills and Doctor visits must be paid or scheduled online.  I sure hope so, so that safety and security can be mine once more.
Lulz Sec thank you for raping my soul, you lower than scum of the earth!!!!!!!!!