Saturday, October 30, 2010

Trying to Find Some Nice Sugar Free Treats for gift giving?

I love The Swiss Colony.  I've usually purchased their cheese or beef logs as Christmas gifts for some family members.  Then I also added a great selection of jellies or jams to the gift.
Yet, this year I have to be a bit more careful in my selections for some family members.  Some have developed diabetes.  One has to take insulin and one does not, yet either way I don't want to make them have to say "No" to all holiday goodies.
It's refreshing that The Swiss Colony has more sugar free selections this year.  Two of the items in the sugar free category that I know my in-laws would really like are the Sugar Free Peanut Brittle and also The Sugar Free Mints.  If you don't see the Sugar Free Items in the drop down category then just type in Sugar Free in the search bar.
Next Head over to Eighty MPH Mom, where you can win a $30 item from The Swiss Colony!  You'd be surprised how many really affordable gifts they have there this year.  A lot of places have undergone price increases, but you won't see that this year at The Swiss Colony.
Good Luck.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

One of those phone calls you don't want to get.

I received a phone call from a friend today.  She was disabled by a brain bleed related to medication she was taking and an infection she had.  She's been having a real hard time adjusting to life since she can no longer work.  Physically she is able to do some things but needs constant redirection to complete tasks and not be constantly worrying. 
I've received calls from her in the past, but today she told me that she almost decided to just commit suicide yesterday. 
My heart dropped.  What do you tell someone who thinks the medical profession has let them down, when you yourself are thinking the same exact thing.  Except, in my case I'm not thinking of killing myself.  I just don't want to deal with them (doctor's) anymore.
She wanted her Doctor to give her some prescription sleeping pills so she could get some rest because her brain never turns off and she can't stop worrying about everything.  Her primary Doctor told her "No."  So she went to see her psychologist and he also told her "No."  So she was calling me asking me if I knew a Doctor that would give her one of two prescription sleeping pills.  She told me the names of the pills, I'm just not going to type them here.
I don't know of any Doctor's and I tried once again explaining that maybe they wouldn't give the medications because they'll interact with her present medications in a negative effect.
I wish she'd discuss this all with her husband, he's in the pharmacology business.  Yet, it feels like they don't talk or discuss any problems with each other anymore.
Finally after talking with me, she's thinking she's going to find a new Doctor.  Yet, I wonder if that is going to do her any good or not.  Why can't Doctor's listen and explain to her the reasons they can't give her medications to help her sleep.  They need to be up front with her and not just be telling her "No."  They need to give her sound reasons.  If they believe she'd misuse them, then they should tell her that.  Yet, why can't they just prescribe her two pills at a time.
I can't be her shrink, I'm not trained.  I listened.  I tried to reason with her, I just tried to be her friend.  I suggested this time as in times past that she should go to the ER if she's feeling like harming herself, but she won't and starts crying when you suggest such a thing.
After she calmed down a bit, she
 told me she was going to go and learn to crochet with her daughter at a yarn shop we have in our community.  I hope this helps her take her mind off of some of her troubles.
I should have told her since she's not working and her daughter is grown she should just sleep on her own schedule.  Sleep when she can no matter if it's during the day or not. 
My husband gets upset with me when I try to help in matters like this, but I feel if I don't listen to her that it may be the last straw.  I don't want to be the last straw for her.
Then after our call, she seemed a little better.
Yet, then my husband started in about me getting another Doctor.  I so didn't want to deal with that from him.  He thinks I'm being negative, and that not all Doctor's are the same.  So from the time I married him and had to deal with military doctor's I counted out how many of them I have seen.  It's been 10!  Yes 10.  None of the ten doctor's are the ones that sent me for the correct test that finally had me diagnosed with the severe achalasia that required surgery.  It was  nurse practitioner that did that.  I'm also thankful she had the test done at a non-military facility, so that a non-military doctor could read the results.
One! One military doctor believed me about the pain related to the achalasia and he was the surgeon who did my surgery but he's no longer stationed in this state.  
How many more Doctor's will I have to go through before I find one that will believe me about my back pain and my abdominal pain?
Do I really have the energy physically or mentally to deal with any more Doctor's that don't truly listen.  I don't want pills thrown at me, I want to know the reason for the pain first.  
So you have here one woman wanting pills because she thinks that will be her answer and one (me) wanting no more pills because I know pills aren't the answer for me.
Pain, whether mental or physical is pain Doctors.  Your patients need to be listened to.  Ask your patients what they are expecting as an outcome from the visit.  One may simply want good sleep, another to find the reason behind a physical pain.
Listen, the first step in communication. 

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Brain Glitches Getting Worse and Bending Over Is Not Good For My Brain

Well, I got a letter in the mail today from the military.  My assigned Doctor is no longer my assigned Doctor.  They have reassigned me to another Doctor.  I do not want to see anymore Doctor's, but my health problems are getting worse and my husband really wants me to see someone.  My brain glitches are getting much worse.  I proof read things I type or even hand write and do not see the mistakes even when I read them out loud.  This is even happening when I run my finger along while reading a line.  I often do not see my mistakes after proofing three or four times.  Then about five minutes to a few hours later I will see the errors.  It's not just spelling errors, it's sentence structure problems as well.  I was never good in English and grammar, I had poor teachers in this area the whole time I was in school, except in the eleventh grade.  I had a creative writing teacher that realized I only had less than a fifth grade reading level and had no idea how to diagram a sentence or any of the rules of grammar.  He handed me a book near the end of the year and told me I needed to work on it myself as he didn't have time this late in my schooling to get me caught up.  He didn't know how I was passed or ended up with B's in English all the years I was in school. 
Some examples of my brain glitches include wanting to type the following words but other words end up on the page because of my brain glitches:
who often becomes how, or vice versa,
their often becomes there or they're or vice versa,
do becomes due or even no or vice versa,
I could make a really long list, but you get the idea.
I live out parts of words often such as:
I leave out s at the end of many plural words
I, instead of I've
it, instead of it's,
we instead of we'll.
I actually one day last week wrote down a list of all the mistakes I made.  I tore it up.  It was too depressing.  I told my husband this is really getting me down.  It makes me nervous because I wonder if I'm having mini strokes causing this.  My mother died from multiple strokes.  They never found out the reason of her strokes, though I think she was passing small clots from a hemangioma she had on her liver that her Doctor would never do anything about.  I sometimes wonder though if she had an undiagnosed atrial fibrillation problem with her heart which can cause small clots to form and go to the brain.
My brother already has a pacemaker defribrillator in because of this problem.
I told three different military Doctor's I thought I needed an angiocath to see if I had pulmonary hypertension and blockages in my heart because my heart skips beats.  Daily I have to do the Valsalva Manuever to get my heart back into normal beat at least once a day if not more often.  I don't drink caffeine, so I know this is not the reason for the problem. 
I have had people say it's related to panic attacks, but how?  I'm doing something I like and not thinking about anything worrisome and the irregular beats will hit and make me dizzy and nauseous.  I know how to do the Valsalva Manuever and usually the first time works to get it back in regular beat, but sometimes it scares me because it takes more than once to work, and I get weak and feel like I'm going to pass out when I have to do it more than once.
The irregular skipping beats even hit sometimes when I've almost fallen asleep or I've jerked myself awake with them, to sit up and do the Valsalva Maneuver.
I don't know if this is happening because of my Achalasia problem, where I have intestinal spasms.  Are these spasms affecting an area in the body in the intestines that can have a vagal response upon the heart.  Yes, I know that sounds weird, but as a former nurse I know that there's a part inside of the lower intestines that you don't want to stimulate too much or it can cause an unwanted heart response.
Yet, even as much as all this nonsense is going on with my body and I know I should get it checked out, I still don't want to deal with anymore Doctor's.  I am burnt out with Doctor's.  I have a fear of wasting my time and again not being listened to.  The truth be told, I get frustrated that what I have told Doctor's over and over has never been documented in my patient chart.  Yes, I have the notes, the labs, the surgery report etc..  We can get these for free from the military, we don't have to pay for the copies.
Truth be told, it wasn't even a military Doctor that sent me for the tests that finally diagnosed me via a civilian Doctor that read the results of the test that I had achalasia.
It was a nurse practitioner that saw me at the Military Base that I went to that finally after years of complaining of severe pain and ending up with aspiration pneumonia that sent me for the correct tests.  Thankfully she sent me to a hospital in my town for the tests and not at the Military Base.  Thankfully a non-military Doctor read those tests and said what the problem was and that it was extremely severe.
Yet, the military sent me to a specialist outside the military and he did nothing about it.  He said "Well, at least you can eat."  Yes, eat and end up with aspiration pneumonia.  That's really smart.  Then my husband asked this specialist if I could choke to death.  He told my husband "Yes."   He told me if I got tired of trying to eat to talk to the Doctor's at the military base about putting a feeding tube into my intestines.  Yet, he denied saying this to the military Doctor's when I told them what this Doctor had said.
Over a year later, I finally got the surgery I needed down where I could eat.  It helped for about two years and then I started having choking problems and lots of pain again.
Then another specialist they sent me to, was again a joke.  He wouldn't check part of my intestines where I'm constantly having pain, and just told me it's part of the achalasia problems.  That it's caused from a genetic nerve/muscle disorder. 
I feel like I'm falling between the cracks in the health care arena of life and why must I keep hitting my head against a brick wall of uncompassionate Doctor's who don't understand the physical pain I'm in.  I know people who have diabetes that get Social Security for the neuralgia's (nerve pain) they have associated with that disease, yet I can't get a single Doctor to listen to me that I can't do what I need to do to work because of pain related to numerous problems, some of which I do not think are only related to the achalasia.  I think I have multiple problems that should warrant me being able to receive what I've paid into.
One of my newest symptoms is the incredible pain I get in my head if I lean over to pick something up, or to pull weeds or pick up sticks or branches off the ground, or lean over to pick my little dog up.  This has been going on for about three months.  If I make myself keep going in about ten minutes at the maximum it will feel like the top of my head is ready to explode off.  I will have tears in my eyes because of the pain, and will have to do controlled breathing exercises to try and just get it back to a manageable level of pain.
I have to quickly sit down.  I end up holding my head up and steady with my hands.  My head literally pounds worse than the migraines I am prone to get.  The thing is the pain is gone in about thirty minutes if I just sit and don't lean over.
Then if I try to do any physical activity that requires a little bit of effort I will be drenched in perspiration in no time flat.  I don't care if I have the air conditioner on where it's cold, it will still happen.  I exhaust super fast.
Yet, once again, even with all this staring me in the face, I don't want to deal with these Doctor's anymore.  I don't want to deal with my husband telling me to see another one and maybe this one will listen and help.  I told him this isn't going to happen because all these military Doctor's talk to each other and they pass their opinions on to one another and the patient be  D________ (you can guess the word that's suppose to be here).  They aren't going to get the care they need because they are already seen either as a big joke, or a liar (because the Doctor's aren't the ones experiencing the physical pain so they somehow in their God Like Minds determine that you're not having pain because you somehow have learned not to cry in front of them each time you're at the Doctor's office), or one who is taking up too much of their valuable time or are too expensive to keep dealing with.  I think it's a combination of all of these factors.  Plus I think military Doctor's only think the valuable patient is the one that is active duty and serving currently in the military.  That's my opinion and that's the way I've been made to feel dealing with the military base I had to go to.  Yes, the insurance has put out quite a bit of money on me.  That's no lie.  I realize that if we had no insurance I would have long ago been dead from a choking incidence related to the achalasia.
Achalasia is still very painful for me.  I know after some people have the Heller Myotomy with the Dor Fundoplication Surgery they no longer have the incredible pains, but I still do.  I did have quite a bit of relief after the surgery for about two years, but then it came back and continues to worsen each and every month.
I still have the incredible back pain and I wonder why nothing is ever done about it.  Do I have a cavernous hemangioma on my spine pressing on nerves in there?  I've asked for a spinal tap to see if there is something in there causing the pain.  That's been a no go too.
I'm not a hypochondriac.  If I was I would be in the ER daily, at the Doctor's daily, with a ton of different illnesses, but no, these are the same pains and just getting worse, with new symptoms I think are interrelated in some way. 
The letter from the Military said this new Doctor that was assigned to me has my Doctor's notes and is familiar with the case.  I don't believe he can be familiar with my case since none of my complaints are listed in there.  The previous Doctor's never listed other than what they wanted to list.  I think that leaves other Doctor's in the dark, but maybe that's what they prefer.  Maybe they don't want to know what's wrong with you because it might mean they have to spend some of their free golf time doing research on their own time to do what's best for the patient.  Maybe it would mean they would have to go to or attend via online a new medical continuing education course to update them on new advances in medical care or little known diseases and they aren't willing to spend their free time expending some brain energy learning something new that may go against everything they were previously taught. 
I realize that medicine is not an exact science that new advances are being made each and everyday.  Yet, I feel like I get stuck with Doctor's that don't want to progress, but merely stagnate and earn a paycheck with little involvement.
Therefore, I think I'm going to pass for now on seeing any new Doctor's.  If that means I die from whatever is going on, well than so be it.  People can then say it's no body's fault but her own, yet they *these doctor's I've dealt with via the military base I had to go to*  need to realize they are truly the ones that burnt me out on Doctor's.
Remember I used to work as a nurse and I saw some really good and compassionate doctor's in the non-military base world that really cared about their patients.  I even saw one when I worked neurology that stayed by a patient's bedside for twelve hours straight with a patient that was dying of brain and spinal cancer to give the patient his pain medications himself per the family's request of this gentleman. 
I have great empathy for others in constant pain or other medical issues that  don't get relief or resolve from the medical community.  I feel your frustrations.  I feel your money issues, because we've had to pay deductibles on things too, especially when seeing Doctor's outside the military bases.  Then there are co-pays on medications and when pills are the things they keep throwing at you, being on several prescriptions at once can truly add up and then you wonder how you can buy groceries, or pay this or that bill.  We've been there.  I finally quit taking all the meds they were throwing at me because they weren't helping with my pains anyways. 
I'd like to say to all Doctor's that have patient's in pain.  Find out first what is causing the pain and find the right treatment to stop the pain before treating other issues.  We the people with the pain, want the pain treated first.  Life is miserable with PAIN.  Worry about the high blood pressure, the high cholesterol, all the other issues after you have helped the patient with their first and foremost primary complaint.  If it's not pain, then what is the patient complaining of, irregular skipping heartbeat, itching, heavy periods.
Please Doctor's listen to your patient's.  Don't form your own opinions until you've addressed what your patient's feel is their primary need.  If you do, then patient's lose confidence in you.  There will become a communication barrier between the two of you from then on. 
My primary need is I need to be on Social Security because I can't do what I need to do to make an income.  If something happens to my husband and it could because he's getting older, I'll probably end up living under a bridge just because of military Doctor's that I have to deal with.

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Google Friends Connect Why Do You Keep Disappearing?

Once again I can't see the Google Friends Connect either on my blog or on anyone else's blogs I'm visiting.  I hope they are just doing maintenance or something and that it will be back again tomorrow. Since I don't have many computer skills this is a bit troubling.  The little I do know is basically self-taught. I wish I knew more, but I'm not a read it and understand it kind of person.  I actually do best with one to one training and watching someone show me and allowing me then to do it and repeating it back a few times. Then I need time to write down my own notes on how to do something in a way that makes sense to my brain.
I wish I had one of those brains that was a written word learner, but we all have our own learning styles.   I know that mine holds me back quite a bit.  However with this kind of brain you need a patient teacher.  My husband knows some things, but he can't teach patiently and I just shut down.  I wish my step-son was here, he could probably show me alot of things and would be patient I'm sure.  Yet, he's states away and I'm sure not coming back here any time soon.  I'd be surprised if we even saw him in a few years.  He never liked this state.  He likes to be nearer the ocean.

I just hope this isn't happening because of something I'm doing or not doing.  Well, I'll be patient again for awhile and see how things go.  Google Friends Connect please come back and let me see you on my blog and all the wonderful blogs I really enjoy visiting.

Friday, October 15, 2010

What teacher had the greatest impact on your life?

The above title question was posed by Eighty MPH Mom.  I can honestly say there were only about 4 that had a great impact on my life.
Yet, the first teacher that really made me feel good about myself was my 6th grade teacher Mr. Housman.  He found a strength in me and helped it to flourish.  He recognized that me and five others in his class were beyond the math skills required for 6th grade.  He helped us and by the end of the year we were doing high school Algebra I.
Why did this make me feel good about myself?  Truthfully,  I was only average in all my other studies.
He was a very fair teacher to all his students.  Mr. Housman made learning fun.  We did a stock market project that was very enlightening.  Crazy experiments was something he always liked to do.  One experiment resulted in an  embalming fluid bottle being accidentally broken.   The school had to be let out for the day to let the school rooms all air out from those strong fumes.   He was told he could only do experiments on Friday afternoons from then on.
You can leave a comment at Eighty MPH Mom and let everyone know about a teacher who had a great impact on your life.  Head over to Eighty MPH Mom, where you can win a Hershey’s Gift Basket !

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Like The Misty Watercolors of My Mind.

I love the creative spirit.  Whether it be photography, poetry, music, sculpture, doll making, quilting or my favorite paintings.  I have been learning on my own through some Donna Dewberry books how to do some acrylic painting, but now I'm thinking watercolors.  So I was very lucky when I learned about this great review and giveaway over at Fun Saving Money.  Faber-Castell is sponsoring a giveaway that would be sure to touch many creative spirits souls.
Please go to the link in this post to see what it is, you won't be disappointed.  Even if you don't paint, perhaps this would make a lovely gift for an older child that seems to show promise that way.  It would give
them the joy of learning, creating and then having the finished work of art hung proudly in the home for all to see and enjoy.  Think holiday presents.
I'm entering and hope to see your names there as entrants.
God Bless.
Note the above link is to Faber-Castell and not to the give away link, the giveaway link is in the body of this post.  Thank you.

10-10-10 the first one since 1910

Hello and nice meeting you for the first time 10-10-10.  Unless you were born on or before 10-10-1910 this is the first time you'd be meeting the 10-10-10 gang. 

If you were born in 1910 or before and meeting the 10-10-10 gang again, I'd like to say congratulations to you on a long and hopefully fulfilled life.

Now I'd like to remembered as a 10 then a 10 and then another 10, wouldn't you.  You can pick which categories you'd like those 10's to be remembered in.  As for me those categories would be: Wife, Mother, Christian-American.  I don't want to be remembered as a 10 as Bo Derek was and still is at times.  I don't want to be remembered as one of the 10 most influential women in the world. I don't want to be remembered as one of the 10 richest people in the world, though I wouldn't mind a bigger piece of the pie and honestly who wouldn't.

If you got to be remembered as a 10 in 3 areas of your life, what would you hope they'd be?

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Is It An Impostor Pillow Pet?

Would you like to find out who has a Happy Purple Hippo?  I bet your children would.
You can find out by going to and clicking on the Pillow Pets link in the giveaways section.
You'll find in the review article all the ways to find out if you're buying an actual Pillow Pet
or a knock off impostor.
Is your child, niece, nephew, foster child, grandchild asking for one, or an additional Pillow Pet as a Holiday Gift?  Do you know of a child with a birthday coming up?  If you do, I'd suggest you hurry and order now.  A few are already out of stock and many more will probably do so as those holiday orders start rolling in.  Don't wait until the last minute and disappoint you child.
Remember this is a dual gift.  A snugly stuffed animal, but also a pillow. 
Do you have a long car ride coming up  to visit relatives during the holiday season?  I think
the Pillow Pet would be welcomed in the car to rest a weary head on by any child.  Don't you
remember taking a pillow in the car with you on vacation?  I do, but I think the Pillow Pet would have been more fun.  It can be folded up into a Pet to sit looking out the back window of your car when arriving at the home of your hosts.
Your child  could dress their Pillow Pet up with holiday theme bandannas around their neck if they wished.  They could read it stories, tell it secrets and give it hugs.  It could be their friend
if they have a tummy ache and are stuck in bed.
Pillow Pets are still very popular with children this year.  If you would like to try and win one please go to the link above in this post.

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

These Holes Aren't Holy.

A letter to the three dogs living in my household.
Okay, you basically killed off the lawn in the backyard this year, but I'm living with that.
Okay, you dragged tiny branches all over the place that I had to pick up until we got the go ahead from the Fire Department yesterday that we could burn them and some leaves off.
Okay, I know the wild rabbits think they can come and live in our yard for free and taunt you all unmercifully.
Yet the holes you dig going after them,
"Dog-Gone It, They aren't Holy!"
I am going to break an ankle from falling into them, or fall crazy and hard, breaking my neck.
Plus I am getting sick and tired of getting the dirt off your faces, out of your nostrils,
eyes and yes even your pointed ears.
If you are going to be diggers you should have floppy ears to keep the dirt from collecting in them when you dig like you're trying to make a hole to the other side of the world.
Okay, I'm burnt out.
I'm leaving the holes for my husband to fill.
He's the one that wanted all the dogs in the first place.
He wore me down for each and every one of them.
He can work on putting a new lawn in next year.
I've put a new lawn in this landscape already four times since we've lived here.
My back can't take putting in another.
So while you take your afternoon naps sleeping under the fan next to me, looking so innocent, I'm kind of hoping you are having nightmares.   Nightmares of  falling down a rabbit hole only to be looking into the red eyes of
a Monster Rabbit that is going to consume you!
Okay, so that's not very Christian or Holy to be thinking this,
but if everyone saw the number of holes and how deep they really are maybe they'd be thinking the same thing.

Monday, October 4, 2010

Perhaps PCH Prize Patrol you'll come to my house soon!

Mr. Beane won a million dollars from Publisher's Clearing House Prize Patrol.  The Prize Patrol team recently just checked back up on him.  Things don't seem normal there yet. 
I could truly understand things not seeming normal. You’d probably feel like you were walking around in a dream state for quite a time. I’m pretty sure that is how I would feel. There’s a good possibility I’d lose some weight because I’m sure from time to time I’d still be jumping up and down, that might go on daily for months afterwards, especially each time I relived the moment of winning from the Great PCH Prize Patrol in my mind.
My husband’s nerves would probably wear thin too, as I would countless times say, “I told you I just knew I’d win the Publisher’s Clearing House $5,000 a week for life prize someday.”  If you don't believe me on this one, then you'd just have to ask my husband if I didn't again just yesterday talk about wanting and knowing I'd win this fabulous, unbelievable prize from PCH.
I’m Happy for Mr. Beane and his family. Enjoy, Enjoy, Enjoy is what I’d like to pass onto him.

Saturday, October 2, 2010

Tastefully Simple

Jaina's Mommy
Jennifer Hernandez
is a Hostess for Tastefully Simple.
If you are looking for great food items as Christmas gifts this year then check out
If you place an order just make sure to list Jennifer Hernandez as your consultant,
her ID number is 0096238.
I placed my order today because I know three people I give gifts to that always love Jams and Jelly's.
So they are going to be very happy with the Berry Medley gifts they will receive this year.
If you love Strawberry Rhubarb pie, I think you'll want to pick up this set yourself,
it also has an equally delicious flavor in the set,
but I'm not going to tell you what it is.
You need to go and check it out for yourself
and while you are there check out all the other fine food items,
some you may want to make for the holidays or other special  days in your lives.
Thank You
and God Bless.

Friday, October 1, 2010

Granny Loves Gift Baskets and Little Ones Books, A Great Combination.

If you love reading books to your little ones, whether they are your own, foster children, nieces, nephews, grandchildren or your class, then you owe it to yourself to visit Granny Loves Gift Baskets where Little One Books is sponsoring a giveaway there.
I love so many of the books Little One Books has in it's store.  I'm sure you'll find some too.  Take a look around and I'm sure you won't be disappointed.
Here are three titles from the 0-12mo book area:  The Going To Bed Book; Hug; Go, Dog. Go!
I'm sure you'll find some of your favorite children's authors there.  The pictures are also so vibrant and sure
to catch the attention and imagination of the very young.